Potrait Emotion

Creep

2010-05-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I 'm a creep
I 'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She run, run, run run
Run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here.

Break Even

2010-05-02T03:45:00.001+08:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

Heartbreaker...

2010-04-24T17:46:00.001+08:00

Look Out [x3]

Where It's At
I Know Karmas Comin To Pay Me Back
I Hurt The Sweetest Thang That's On The Map
I Broke Her Heart In 30 Seconds Flat
In 30 Seconds Flat

Now How Did I
Just How Did I Become That Kind Of Guy
To Look At Girl And Lie Right In The Eye
My Momma Told Me Willy That Ain't Right
Boy Now That Ain't Right

I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Your Heart [x2]
I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Ya
B B B B Break It Baby
Look Baby
I'm A Heartbreaker [x6]
I'm A Heart
A H H H H I'm A Heart
A H H H I'm A

Where She Go
I Got Some Things I Gotta Let Her Know
To Fix The Love Now It's Impossible
But Baby Baby If We Take It Slow
If We Take It Slow
We Can Make It Work
We Just Can't Throw The Love Down In The Dirt
You Probly Thinkin I'm A F**Kin Jerk
Cause The Way I Let You Down It Made You Hurt
I Didn't Mean To Make You Hurt

I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Your Heart [x2]
I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Ya
B B B B Break It Baby
Look Baby
I'm A Heartbreaker [x6]
I'm A Heart
A H H H H I'm A Heart
A H H H I'm a

Break It Down
Let's Break It Down [roughly x15]

So So So Sorry
So So So Sorry
A La La La
La La La La
La La La La

I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Your Heart [x2]
I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Ya
B B B B Break It Baby
Look Baby
I'm A Heartbreaker [x6]
I'm A Heart
A H H H H I'm A Heart
A H H H I'm a

No Apologies

2010-04-10T14:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel like this....

I've heard it before
I'm straight out of line
The image of malice
With one evil mind
I've got no excuse
It's my alibi
A victim of fashion
Dressed to do or die

Don't worry about me
I'm not your misery
All reject, no respect
(I don't, I don't, I don't...)

I don't want to be a conclusion
Victim of confusion
And I'll stay, my own place, right here in nowhere
So here's my resignation
From the desperation
I'm the saint of hopeless
I'll make no apologies

Well this is a call
Throughout and across
The underdog nation
The hopeless and lost
'Cause we're not the ones
To walk with the dead
Disciples of no one
By no one we're led

Don't worry about me
I'm not your tragedy
All reject, no respect
(I don't, I don't, I don't...)

I don't want to be a conclusion
Victim of confusion
And I'll stay, my own place, right here in nowhere
So here's my resignation
From the desperation
I'm the saint of hopeless
I'll make no apologies

Na, na, na
Na, na, na
Na, na, na, na
(I make no apologies)

I don't want to be a conclusion
Victim of confusion
And I'll stay, my own place, right here in nowhere
So here's my resignation
From the desperation
I'm the saint of hopeless
I'll make no apologies

Forever

2010-04-03T04:18:00.004+08:00

It may not mean nothing to y'all
But understand nothing was done for me
So I dont plan on stopping at all
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine
Im shutting shit down at the mall
And telling every girl she the one for me
And I aint even planning to call
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine, ever mine

[Drake]
Last name ever
First name greatest
Like a sprained ankle boy I aint nothing to play with
Started off local but thanks to all the haters
I know G4 pilots on a first name basis
In your city faded off the brown, Nino
She insists she got more class, we know
Swimming in the money come and find me, Nemo
If I was at the club you know I ball, chemo
Drop the mixtape that shit sounded like a album
Who'da thought a country wide tour'd be the outcome
Labels want my name beside the X like Malcolm
Everybody got a deal, I did it without one
Yeah nigga Im about my business
Killing all these rappers you would swear I had a hit list
Everyone who doubted me is asking for forgiveness
If you aint been a part of it at least you got to witness
Bitches

It may not mean nothing to yall
But understand nothing was done for me
So I dont plan on stopping at all
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine
Im shutting shit down at the mall
And telling every girl she the one for me
And I aint even planning to call
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine, ever mine

[Kanye West]
I used to have hood dreams
Big fame, big chains
I stuck my dick inside this life until that bitch came
I went hard all fall like the ball teams
Just so I can make it rain all spring
Yall seen my story my glory
I had raped the game young
You can call it statutory
When a nigga blow up they gon build statures of me
Old money Benjamin Button, whaat, nuttin
Now superbad chicks giving me McLovin
You would think I ran the world like Michelles husband
You would think these niggas would know me when they really doesnt
Like they was down with the old me no you fucking wasnt
Youre such a fucking loser
He didnt even go to class Bueller
Trade the Grammy plaques just to have my granny back
Remember she had that bad hip like a fanny pack
Chasing the stardom will turn you into a maniac
All the way in Hollywood and I cant even act
They pull their cameras out and God damn they snap
I used to want this thing forever yall can have it back

It may not mean nothing to yall
But understand nothing was done for me
So I dont plan on stopping at all
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine
Im shutting shit down at the mall
And telling every girl she the one for me
And I aint even planning to call
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine, ever mine

[Lil Wayne]
Ok, hello it's da Martian
Space jam Jordans
I want this shit forever wake up and smell the garden
Fresher than the harvest
Step up to the target
If I had one guess than I guess Im just New Orleans
And I will never stop like Im running from the cops
Hop up in my car and told my chauffeur to the top
Life is such a fucking roller coaster then it drops
But what should I scream for this is my theme park
My minds shine even when my thoughts seem dark
Pistol on my side you dont wanna hear that thing talk
Let the king talk check the price and pay attention
Lil Wayne thats what they got to say or mention
Im like Nevada in the middle of the summer
Im resting in the lead I need a pillow and a cover
Shhh, my foots sleeping on the gas
No brake pads, no such thing as last

It may not mean nothing to yall
But understand nothing was done for me
So I dont plan on stopping at all
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine
Im shutting shit down at the mall
And telling every girl she the one for me
And I aint even planning to call
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine, ever mine

[Eminem]
There they go, back in stadiums as Shady spits his flow
Nuts they go, macadamian they go so ballistic, whoa
We can make them look like Bozos
He's wondering if he should spit this slow
Fuck no! Go for broke
His cup just runneth over, oh no
He aint had a real buzz like this since the last time that he overdosed
Theyve been waiting patiently for Pinocchio to poke his nose
Back into the game and they know
Rap will never be the same as before
Bashing in the brains of these hoes
And establishing a name as he goes
The passion and the flame is ignited
You cant put it out once we light it
This shit is exactly what the fuck that Im talking about when we riot
You dealin with a few true villains
Whose stand inside of the booth truth spillin
And spit true feelings, until our tooth fillings come flying up out of our mouths
Now rewind it!
Payback muthafucka for the way that you got at me hows it taste?
When I slap the taste out your mouth with the bass so loud that it shakes the place
Im Hannibal Lecter so just in case youre thinking of saving face
You aint gonna have no face to save by the time I'm through with this place
So Drake

It may not mean nothing to yall
But understand nothing was done for me
So I dont plan on stopping at all
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine
Im shutting shit down at the mall
And telling every girl she the one for me
And I aint even planning to call
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine, ever mine

If You Don't Wanna Love Me....

2010-04-01T20:58:00.001+08:00

When you lower me down
So deep that I
I can't get out

When you're lost, lost and alone
Yes you'd think it was the last place
You'd come back for more

If you don't want me to leave
Then don't push me away
Rather blow out the lights
You can watch it all fade
But I'm going nowhere

I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing your eyes
Cause you don't wanna love me

I'm gonna stay
You can't push me too far
There's no space in my heart
Where I don't wanna love you

When there's no storm
Then how can I feel the corn
If there's nothing, nothing,
Nothing left to lose
Then what is this feeling
That keeps on bringing me
Back to you

So I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing your eyes
Cause you don't wanna love me

So I'm gonna stay
You can't push me too far
There's no space in my heart
Where I don't wanna love you

If you asked me to leave
And I walked away
We'd still be alone
And we'd still be afraid
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere

Cause I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing your eyes
Cause you don't wanna love me

I'm gonna stay
All the tears that I've cried
I can leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me

Could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me

Snuff

2010-03-31T08:37:00.002+08:00

A song from one of my fav metal band...
Slipknot...
This is one of their slow songs...
This song is about..
A guy who promised to a woman that
he "will never let go"...
After the woman left him......
he's still not letting go....

Bury all your secrets in my skin

Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart... when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint...
My own was banished long ago
It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won't Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away - You're All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control...
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don't Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don't ever let me know...

Dammit..

2010-03-27T15:20:00.003+08:00

It's alright to tell me what you think about me
I won't try to argue or hold it against you
I know that you're leaving you must have your reasons
The season is calling and your pictures are falling down

The steps that I retrace the sad look on your face
The timing and structure did you hear he fucked her?
A day late a buck short I'm writing the report
On losing and failing when I move I'm flailing now

and it'll happen once again I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well I guess this is growing up

And maybe I'll see you at a movie sneak preview
You'll show up and walk by on the arm of that guy
And I'll smile and you'll wave we'll pretend it's okay
The charade it won't last when he's gone I won't come back

And it'll happen once again
You'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
And sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And you've been there for too long
To face this on your own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up
Well, I guess this is growing up

Miss u too...

2010-03-25T19:46:00.004+08:00

First of all, I want to apologise tat i cudnt get my off this fri...
dah plan sui sui.. skali alamak... ader duty lah...
and.. maybe on saturday, sunday or monday i'll meet u...
lau nk tiga2 hari tu jugak i'll meet u...
coz... I miss you...
n this song's for u....

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)

(I miss you, I miss you)

Cursed Life

2010-03-21T15:53:00.001+08:00

I Miss Being Loved....

Well, what to do.....
my life's cursed.. i think...

Angel

2010-03-16T03:26:00.001+08:00

Sparkling angel
I believe
You are my saviour
In my time of need

Blinded by faith
I couldn't hear
All the whispers
The warning's so clear

I see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
There is no escape now
Now mercy no more

No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

[Chorus:]
You took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams
I wished they'd turn to real
You broke the promise
And made me realise
It was all just a lie

Sparkling angel
Couldn't see
Your dark intentions
Your feelings for me

Fallen angel
Tell me why?
What is the reason?
The thorn in your eye

I see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
There is no escape now
No mercy no more

No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

[Chorus]

Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end

This world may have failed you
It doesn't give the reason why
You could have chosen
A different path of life

The smile when you tore me apart

[Chorus:]
You took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams
I wished they'd turn in to real
You broke a promise
And made me realise
It was all just a lie

Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end

"I SHOULD HAVE KEPT EVERYTHING...
...TO MYSELF."

What Have You Done

2010-03-14T17:57:00.000+08:00

Would you mind if I hurt you?
Understand that I need to
Wish that I had other choices
Than to harm the one I love

What have you done now?

I know I'd better stop trying
You know that there's no denying
I won't show mercy on you now
I know I should stop believing
I know that there's no retrieving
It's over now
What have you done?

What have you done now?

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now?
Why, Why does fate make us suffer
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done now?

Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to
Cause you have turned into my worst enemy?
You carry hate that I feel
It's over now
What have you done

What have you done now

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now?
Why, Why does fate make us suffer
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done now?

I will not fall
Won't let it go
We will be free
When it ends

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now?
Why, Why does fate make us suffer
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

2010-03-14T09:43:00.002+08:00

Should I back out....
...And walk away from these feelings that I have?
Should I draw the line...
...between a friend and a lover?

PS: I've already fallen for you.

More Than Friends

2010-03-09T23:55:00.006+08:00

More than friends

We're more than friends
We are like lovers
Two souls in one
Forever entwined
I feel with your skin
You live off my heart's beat
Warm me within
While tending my wounds

Miles still divide
The distance between us
Keeps growing still
And hope is a lie
And every night
We share the same dream
That's where we hide
You and I

You have always been
Much more than friend to me
And I could never hope
To find another one
Now the time is right
Just tell me what to sacrifice
For you tonight

Wake me with the sound of your heartbeat through silence
If I'm an offering good enough for you
Or let me slumber deeper and deeper.
Forever I'm waiting for you.

Would you hate me if I crossed that line from wanting to "why"?
Alone I'm tonight.
Tell me if I'm alive or just breathing
For I cast no shadow when I'm alone.

You have always been much more than a friend to me
You were always much so more than a friend should be

Wake me with the sound of your heartbeats in silence
If I'm an offering good enough for you
Or let me slumber deeper and deeper
Forever I'm waiting for you
Just call my name and I'll be there
Forever I'm waiting for you

You have always been much more than a friend to me
You were always so much more than a friend should be

Wake me with the sound of your heartbeats through silence
If I'm an offering good enough for you
Or let me slumber deeper and deeper
Forever I'm awaiting for you
Wake me with the sound of your heart's beats in silence
If I'm an offering good enough for you
Just call my name and I'll be there
Forever I'm awaiting for you

Until The Day I Die

2009-06-02T19:42:00.006+08:00

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by I race the clock with you
But if you died right now you know that I'd die too, I'd die too
You remind me of the times when I knew who I was
(When I knew who I was)
But still the second hand will catch us like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes i'll take the fall for you
I Hope you need this now coz I know I still do

Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue until blood soaks my shirt?
Never fall apart so tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat and I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "Remember when"
Just like we always do, just like we always do

Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you

My hands are at your throat I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes, mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat and I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes we made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
Until the day I die

Just Close Your Eyes

2009-06-01T10:23:00.003+08:00

Just Close Your Eyes
Deceived by my eyes and all I was told I should see
Opinions not mine, the person they taught me to be
One night in the dark, a vision of someone I knew
And in the darkness I saw, a voice say, I'm you.
Inside me a light was turned on Then I was alive

Chorus:
If you close your eyes your life, a naked truth revealed
Dreams you never lived, and scars never healed
In the darkness, light will take you to the other side
and find me waiting there you'll see, if you just close your eyes

Hearts uninspired, trapped inside somebody's dream
Too close to the fire, yet cold and so numb with the pain
But the fever has broken, and the river has run to the sea
Washed to the ocean, and saved by a voice inside me.
Inside me a light was turned on Then I was alive

Repeat CHORUS

Never thought I would be here, so high in the air
This is my unanswered prayer
Defined by another, so much wasted time
Out of the darkness, each breath that I take will be mine

Repeat CHORUS

All I Can Do Is Hope...

2009-06-01T00:39:00.003+08:00

WARNING:
(This shit is not a poem...)

I hope that all my sacrifices are worthwhile...
I hope all my words came thru...
Cause there's nothing I can do but to love you...

The promises that we made under the stars,
had never been forgotten..
And I'm still upholding it till the very end...

If you think I'm that bad,
why would I sacrifice everything for you...
When u having fun n I'm sad...
I'm praying all for you..

Every mistake is forgivable...
Human makes mistakes...
Mistakes are unavoidable...
till we realized it's much too late...

what happens next is vital...
Either he's sorry or simply just don't care...
Im feeling suicidal...
And you just don't fucking care?...

Don't think I wrote this shit just to diss you...
It's just a way to show how i miss you...
What you did all was right...?
ya..! after u willing to pick up a fight..

I'm sick and tired just to be hated...
All i hope that we're fated...
When you need guidance, just look at the moon....
And I really hope that we'll be together soon...

2009-05-31T08:22:00.003+08:00

Just because you know the gist of it...
Doesn't mean u know the whole of it...
Just because you heard of it...
Doesn't mean u know the truth of it...

And that my fren...
Stay out...
Coz u're not helping neither of us....

Metalingus

2009-05-17T05:07:00.000+08:00

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
Bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all behind

On this day its so real to me
Everything has come to life
Another chance to chase a dream
Another chance to feel
Chance to feel alive.....

I've been defeated and brought down
Dropped to my knees when hope ran out
The time has come to change my ways.....

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
Bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all, leave it all behind... Yeah..

I'll never long for what might have been.. No...
Regret won't waste my life again.. Woah...
I won't look back
I'll fight to remain.....

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
Bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all behind

On this day its so real to me
Everything has come to life
Another chance to chase a dream
Another chance to feel
Chance to feel alive.....

Fear will kill me, all I could be
Lift these sorrows
Let me breathe,
Could you set me free....
Could you set me free.......

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
Bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all behind

On this day its so real to me
Everything has come to life
Another chance to chase a dream
Another chance to feel
Chance to feel alive.....

So Lonely...

2009-03-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

So far away
You've been gone all the while
I'm feeling lonely like a homeless child
This clown pretends
everything's all right
While his heart is breakin' inside

So lonely, so lonely for you
Oh baby, Oh baby
I'm so lonely
What can I do
I'm trapped
I'm livin' without you

You're all that I have
I can't leave you behind
The touch of your love
Oh it burns me inside
I should break away
But I've nowhere to run
I'm trapped
I'm livin' without you

Love gone wrong
Love gone blind
Tears may flow
Till the end of time
Can't let go
To what I left behind
I've awaited too long

So lonely, so lonely for you
Oh baby, Oh baby
I'm so lonely
What can I do
I'm trapped
I'm livin' without you

2009-01-16T14:10:00.002+08:00

Lately you have been asking me
if all my words are true...
Don't you know I'll do anything for you....

Sometimes I haven't been good to you...
Sometimes I've made you cry...
And I am sorry for everything...
but I promise you girl
I promise you this...

When the blue night is over my face...
on the dark side of the world in space...
When I'm all alone with the stars above...
you are the one I love...

So there's no need to worry girl...
My heart is sealed for you...
And no one's gonna take it away...
cos' I promise you girl
I promise you this....

When the blue night is over my face...
on the dark side of the world in space...
When I'm all alone with the stars above...
you are the one I love...

Your voice is calling to me in my dreams...
My love is stronger than it's ever been...

For you... Ry...

2009-01-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

Dik, aku pinta kau akan slalu setia
Dik, aku mohon kau slalu menemani
Saat ku tengah terluka
Kala ku tengah gundah

[Chorus]

Ku akan menjagamu
Di bangun dan tidurmu
Di semua mimpi dan nyatamu
Ku akan menjagamu
Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin, tak ingin kau rapuh

Dik, jangan engkau pergi tinggalkan aku
Dik, ingin aku cinta dan cinta slalu
Saat kau tengah terluka
Kala kau tengah gundah

Kau akan menjagaku
Di bangun dan tidurku
Di semua mimpi dan nyataku
Kau akan menjagaku
Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin, tak ingin kau rapuh

Ta Daa!!!...

2009-01-08T12:45:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone...
long time no see..
i tot i mati...

haha...
been quite some time since i last blog...
no time + lazy...

i will update from where i last stop...

kk...
chow chin chaoz...

Dead Memories

2008-10-14T02:11:00.001+08:00

Sitting in the dark, I can't forget
Even now, I realize the time I'll never get
Another story of the Bitter Pills of Fate
I can't go back again
I can't go back again
But you asked me to love you and I did

Traded my emotions for a contract to Commit
And when I got away, I only got so far
The Other Me Is Dead
I hear his voice inside my head...

We were never alive, and we won't be born again
But I'll never survive with
Dead Memories in my heart

You told me to love you and I did
Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit
So when I got away, I only kept my scars
The Other Me Is Gone
Now I don't know where I belong...

We were never alive, and we won't be born again.
But I'll never survive with
Dead Memories in my heart

Dead Visions in your Name
Dead Fingers in my Veins
Dead Memories in my Heart

2008-10-08T02:36:00.001+08:00

Somethings are better left unsaid....

Hari Raya Chapter...

2008-10-04T02:24:00.007+08:00

Taa-daa....
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..
Maaf Zahir dan Batin...
Kalau ader tersilap kater atau terkasar bahase..
razlie di sini ingin menyusun sepuluh jari...
masok skali jari-jemari kaki...
(10+10=20)...
ingin memohon maaf kepade anda sume...
And The PESTA PEROT BEGINS!!!...

well tats for the introduction....
lets get started...
oh well...
first day raye...
start my raye at 2pm...
cos i woke up late....
haha..
my family went to my grandaunt and granduncle's house...
juz nearby...
the stall vendors at JSS...
RMBR?

i waited for Ry to arrive...
she decided to tag along...
and she's gorgeous in the malay traditional outfit...
after the arrival of the VIP...
then i joined my family at my granduncle's house...

next we proceed to Springside Avenue...
heard tat my auntie jus moved to a private house..
a 3-storey house...
when i stepped inside i was wrong....
it was a 4-storey house...
the house was huge...
my auntie gave my family a tour of the house...
the house was attractive...
but tiring after walking up a series of stairs...
she has these two cats which cost ard 900 bucks each...
a ragdoll species...
named Cuddles & Freckles...
the cat is HUGE & ADORABLE!!...

den we made a move off..
inside the car...
i felt something mushy inside my pocket...
when i took out my money, my ciggy box etc.....
it was covered w chocolate...
haha...
the chocolate tat i took from my aunt's house melted...
my brothers and even Ry laughed at my stupidity...
(well it was hershey's kisses of coz i took some w me)
without feeling wasted,
i licked every chocolate thats on my money, ciggy box and lighter.
they look disgusted...
hahah...

and my story goes on and on....
im tired...
well...
here are the pics..

My Family...

Here's Freckles w my Mom...

My Beloved Grandparents...Ry w My Newborn Cousin...
(forgot her name)

Juraimi, E1 & Me...Me w a $500 Cat...
(good photographing by Ry huh?)

Tired face of Ry w the same cat...

Dam Dam Dum... Bunyi Mercun...

2008-10-01T04:06:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raye....!!
Razlie disini ingin mengucapkn...
Selamat Hari Raye Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin
kepade kaum muslimin dan musliman yang berpuase je...
Yang tk puase tu tak usah lah nk beraye k...

Something To Laugh At...

2008-09-29T16:03:00.004+08:00

Well if u guys knew who r they(the ones in black)...
U guys would be grinning while watching the vid...
n btw to those who don't...
they are a Swedish metal band called HammerFall...

Those spontaneous women in the vid are
the Swedish curling Olympic team...

Yeah...
"Hearts on Fire... Hearts on Fire...
Burning, Burning With Desire..."

Wanna Be A Writer....

2008-09-28T18:27:00.000+08:00

Lately,
I have this inspiration to write...
write a story i mean....
feel like i wanna be a writer...
have my own book maybe...

well for starters...
let me write my stories on my blog...
but please don't copy it...
well, its in malay...
i will do the translation in english when i have time...

so here goes...
The title for the story is..

Kemalangan Yang Paling Ngeri Saya Lihat

Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup
sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu
beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi
sebab air telah jadi air batu dan air
paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di
dalam batang paip. Pagi itu saya
bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam
unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk.
Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya
menemaninya ke pasar. Tetapi saya
tidak mahu. Selepas emak menikam perut
saya berkali-kali dengan garfu barulah
saya bersetuju untuk mengikutnya.

Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer
kerana pasar itu letaknya 128
kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer
nak sampai pasar saya ternampak sebuah
lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari
arah belakang. Dia melanggar emak
saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam
gaung. Dia menjerit "Adoi!". Lepas itu
emak saya naik semula dan mengejar
lori tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari
di belakang emak saya kerana takut
emak saya melanggar lori itu pula.

Pemandu lori itu nampak kami
mengejarnya. Dia pun memecut lebih
laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan
cahaya. Kami pula terpaksa mengejar
dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan
dua kali ganda kelajuan cahaya. Emak
saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori
itu. Lori itu terbabas dan melanggar
pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan
sebuah feri. Feri itu terbelah dua.
Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100
orang semuanya mati.

Pemandu feri itu sangat marah. Dia pun
bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire
pemandu lori. Pemandu lori menekan
butang khas di dalam lori dia..lori
itu bertukar menjadi robot
Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara.
Emak saya tidak puas hati. Dia pun
terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di
Genting Highlands dan terus ke tempat
kemalangan. Dia melanggar pemandu feri
yang telah bertukar menjadi Ultraman
itu. Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan
terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri
semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya.
Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori
sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia
meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia
menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam.
Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia
menyendengkan helikopternya dan
mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu
dengan kipas helikopter. Pemandu lori
itu menjerit "Adoi..!" dan jatuh ke
bumi.

Emak saya menghantar helikopter itu ke
Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke
tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul
pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya
sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di
dalam bahasa Inggeris. Pemandu lori
itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak
saya cakap orang putih. Lalu pemandu
lori itu mati. Tidak lama kemudian
kereta polis pun sampai. Dia membuat
lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang
kemalangan ngeri itu. Semua anggota
polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat
lalu mati.

Orang ramai mengerumuni tempat
kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa
yang telah terjadi. Polis yang
bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai
lalu dia menjerit menggunakan pembesar
suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan
semuanya mati.

Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke
pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai lagi
yang akan mati. Di pasar, emak saya
menceritakan kejadian itu kepada
penjual daging. Penjual daging dan
peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang
mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut
dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus
berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu
penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah kami
pun mati. Itulah kemalangan yang
paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat
sebelum saya mati.

So amacam?...
Ader bakat tak?...
hmm...
go ahead
comment on my story...

The Fasting Month....

2008-09-05T11:31:00.000+08:00

dear bongokss!!
eh.. bloggers lah...
the month of ramadhan is here...
well actually it came 4 days ago...
(a bit late in updating this blog... ader lag sikit ni blog...)

critics: "ah yelah... pasal puase itu lag lah ini lag lah...!
cuber kalau hari raye... dier yg dulu..
puase lom abes da post psl hari raye...!"

razlie: "diam kamu!... menyenye mcm mak aku plak....."

well, in this month, im busy with...
house painting...
pantat...
malas betol....
merengkek, lagi2 sorg buat kerje tu...

hmm..
ape nk ckp eh...
okayz...
ckp tentang buka plak...

critic:"ah tengok tu... aku da cakap da.. dier tak nk ckp pasal puase...
ape ibadah nye puase ape pahala ape dosa....
ape dier pikir... BUKA PUASA PLAK!..."

razlie: "OI!!! Diam oi!! Sumbat mouse dalam juboh baru tao...
biar jalan cam kedi... nnt..."

erm.. ermm..

sori sori...
as i was saying...
about break fast...

the 1st first day...
when to sembawang shell station with ry...
met my mom there at her workplace and bought paints...
den we went to Madina Restaurant to buy food...
take away the foods n brought home...
there i saw Eddy Cradle...
alamak bleh tahan jugak bini dier...
haha...
reached hm...
buka with family and ry...

the 2nd day...
when out to Vivocity with ry..
to shop for her 'school' stuff...
SHE bought lots of stuff....
everything cost around $600...
and thats NOT nearly checked half of her shopping list
haiyo...
but having your bf following u ard when u shop and he's hungry...
fooooo.. PRICELESS...
'a hungry man is a grumpy man...'
thought of breaking fast at VIVO..
but called my mom and she said she gonna buy food at BURGER KING..
at the speed of light..
i changed my mind....
wakakaka...
so ry and I break our fast at my home...

The 3rd day...
the day i went to SP...
re-enrolled there...
got a new student card...
rubbish...
i dont need that...
13th october...
im coming back...
den..
break my fast at my aunt's hse where my 3rd brother lives..
bcoz its his 13th bdae...
happi birthday u moron...

The 4th day...
my family, ry and i...
when to break our fast at 399...
ry wanted to treat my my family...
i told her tat will nvr happen...
and its true...
my mom nvr allow it...
wakaka...
told you...
her son knows best...

and i'll update to you soon....
a brief summary je...
im nt gona mention everyday life of mine...
its Boring...

Endless Rain...

2008-08-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

I'm walking in the rain
Aimlessly, Silently soaking my scarred self
Ice of Anxiety entangles around
Continuously murdering me, wandering all the time
Until I can forget your love

Sleep is a drug
Melting my heart which has lost its soul
Dancing my love, lifting high
Embracing my trembling body in a rose of memories
I keep my love for you to myself

Endless rain, fall on my heart, on my heart's scar
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion
When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert

It's a dream, I'm in love with you
Falling away, hold me tight

Endless rain, fall on my heart, on my heart's scar
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness

I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over.
I can no longer hear the voice of your gentle words.
Floating off tear stained walls.
So awakening in the morning, I'll move into my dreams ...
until I can forget your love.

Endless rain, fall on my heart, on my heart's scar
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness

This is one of the saddest song i've heard...

so here's a tribute to the great band...
X Japan...

The Members:

Yoshiki (Drums) Toshi (Vocals)
Hide (Lead Guitar)
(13th Dec 1964 - 2 May 1998)
Pata (Guitar)
Heath (Bass)

Former Member:

Taiji (Bass)

Oh crap...

2008-07-31T10:16:00.000+08:00

here's a bit of information
for u guys whu r tinking of taking motorbike 2b lesson...

recently, BBDC... (paused)
No!..
not Budak-Budak Demam Cacat...
tu dah laen...
Bukit Batok Driving Centre lah...

(continue) ... has changed its lessons..
abit of shuffle here and there...
as for what I know...
the lesson of 4.02 (circuit review & u-turn)
has changed to pillion riding and simulator instead which suppose to be lesson 5.01...
and lesson 5.01 now is again pillion riding bt the only difference is that..
this lesson has timing requirements on the circuit...
meet the requirements, u pass...
if not, consider fail..

as for 5.02..
still the same shit..
circuit evaluation...
BUT!!...
hear these shit...
circuit evaluation on BOTH...
Riding with a pillion and Self..
which makes it tougher to pass...

so in such case...
u wobble wobble with a pillion,
go ride a bicycle...

why they decided to change?..
ya.. why?!..
after i failed 5 times for my 4.02 which on circuit review and wasted over $100...
and changed to the lesson which confirm pass..!!
knn..
ok enough said...

the reason why because its the new TP requirement..
tat the student rider must at least complete 200 minutes of pillion riding...
tada...
mcm sial kn?..
aku tau...
padan muker aku lah..
haha..

btw... new blog updates on www.xero-gravity.blogspot.com

do check it out...

The Promise...

2008-07-15T15:09:00.000+08:00

Remember the promise?...
the promise that I made...
when i made that promise, i really do mean it...

"I'll never leave you, no matter what happens...
I'll be by your side always..."

Recall those words...
Cos my feelings for you will never fade...
and i will stay by your side...

...I never regret....

I Love You...

Don't Fear The Reaper - Blue Oyster Cult

2008-07-01T14:27:00.000+08:00

All our times have come
Here but now they're gone
Seasons don't fear the reaper
Nor do the wind the sun or the rain (we can be like they are)
Come on baby (don't fear the reaper)
Baby take my hand (don't fear the reaper)
We'll be able to fly (don't fear the reaper)
Baby I'm your man
La-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la-la

Valentine is done
Here but now they're gone
Romeo and Juliet
Are together in eternity (Romeo and Juliet)
40,000 men and women everyday (like Romeo and Juliet)
40,000 men and women everyday (redefine happiness)
Another 40,000 coming everyday (we can be like they are)

Come on baby (don't fear the reaper)
Baby take my hand (don't fear the reaper)
We'll be able to fly (don't fear the reaper)
Baby I'm your man
La-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la-la

Love of two is one
Here but now they're gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear she couldn't go on
Then the door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew then disappeared
The curtains flew then he appeared (saying don't be afraid)

Come on baby (and she had no fear)
And she ran to him (then they started to fly)
They looked backward and said goodbye (she had become like they are)
She had taken his hand (she had become like they are)
Come on baby (don't fear the reaper)

Weekly Update....

2008-05-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

hmm..
here's an update on wat's going on the past week..

nothing much actually...
mostly stayed at home..
sent Ry to skool..
fetched her frm skool..
played on my PS3..
gt new games..
Rockband...
entertained Ry's cats...
haiyo..
headache..

den settle my problem with Singapore Poly...
the result...
soon to come..
i'll update once i gt the result..

den my brudder Iqbal..
admitted to hosp (again)...
i'm planning to visit him tmr...
hope he's fine...
hang on beb...

hmm..
den...
some jovial news..
of coz...
Manchester United are the Champions of EUROPE!!..

"...glory, glory Man United,
glory, glory Man United,
glory, glory Man United,
as the Reds go marching on and on..."

Ready To Rock....

2008-04-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

(My Helmet Gets a Taste of It)

hey blog...
you won't believe what recently happen...

i won lucky draw contest...
a ballot thingy...
won the first prize...
what is it...?

hmmm..
it's a Sony PS3 baby....!
complete with Guitar Heroes 3: Legend of Rock game...
wow..!!
how shocked was i...

when i went to collect it,
people keep staring at me...
i started to get insecured...
what happens if someone chopped mi from the back and run with my ps3?..
haha.. panic...
but luckily nothing happened..

Now i'm ready to plug in & rock my boxers off..
the game is cool...
quite tough at first..
once you get use to it,
its easy...

it include songs from slipknot lah...
haha... power..
also iron maiden, scorpions, santana, guns & roses, metallica, dragonforce & many more...

other games i have is...
Devil May Cry 4
Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare
FIFA 08

Well.. time to get rocking again...
and practice my way to become the deity of rock...

chow chin chaoz...

(The Set)

My Feelings for you can never fade...

...i swear

Weekend

2008-04-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

I hear a knock on the door,
closing in on my eyes,
lost in the consciousness
is your whisper,
Over coming a melting heart,
a faded portrait reflects
my disappearing memories.

At once and still chaotic,
hateful black heart,
closes in on me.
A sharp, transient feeling, in a single wave,
becomes a hysterical wind.
Stopping tears, and held in feelings
in a colourless silence.

I've nothing to lose
(love me till the end),
except your heart.

Blood flows from your wrists and body
into the distant seas of time

Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend

I've nothing to lose
(love me till the end),
except your heart,
I've nothing to lose
(love me till the end),
except your heart.

No way out...
I hear a knock on the door,
closing in on my eyes,
lost in the consciousness is your whisper.
Blood flows from your wrists and body
into the distant seas of time...

weekend ... weekend.... .Weekend ...
I still love you ...
Weekend ...
but I cannot carry on!

Blood flows from your wrists and body
into the distant seas of time ...

Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end,
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend...weekend ... weekend...

??

2008-04-06T18:49:00.000+08:00

Terasa bagai ditusuk sembilu bisa
Pedihnya entah bila akan terhenti
Berkasih di rimba asmara berapi
Terbakar hanya ku sendiri
Oh mengapa...?

Ke mana hilang janji dan sumpah setia?
Ke mana tumpah selaut harum kasturi?
Apakah mungkin kan terulang kembali?
Asyiknya cinta bagai dulu
Atau serapuhnya mimpi
Yang pulang pagi...

Semakin ingin aku lupakan
Dan semakin bayang wajahmu kan menjelma
Di manakah puncanya derita?
Kusendiri tidak pasti..
sayang...

Siapa merebut seri cinta?
Waktu aku buka jendela
Di keheningan pagi indah
Siapa sejambak mawar merah?
Harum di kamar hatimu
Hingga diriku disingkirkan

Redup senja di kaki malam
Menghilangkan warna lalang
Dan cinta kini bagaikan
Perkasihan mimpi...

Art of Life

2008-02-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

Desert Rose
Why do you live alone?
If you are sad
I'll make you leave this life
Are you white, blue or bloody red?
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand

The winds of time
You knock me to the ground
I'm dying of thirst
I wanna run away
I don't know how to set me free to live
My mind cries out feeling pain

I've been roaming to find myself
How long have I been feeling endless hurt
Falling down, rain flows into my heart
In the pain I'm waiting for you
Can't go back
No place to go back to
Life is lost, Flowers fall
If it's all dreams
Now wake me up
If it's all real
Just kill me

I'm making the wall inside my heart
I don't wanna let my emotions get out
It scares me to look at the world
Don't want to find myself lost in your eyes
I tried to drown my past in grey
I never wanna feel more pain
Ran away from you without saying any words
What I don't wanna lose is love

Through my eyes
Time goes by like tears
My emotion's losing the colour of life
Kill my heart
Release all my pain
I'm shouting out loud
Insanity takes hold over me

[Voices in my head]
Turning away from the wall
Nothing I can see
The scream deep inside
reflecting another person in my heart
He calls me from within
"All existence you see before you
must be wiped out :
Dream, Reality, Memories,
and Yourself"

I begin to lose control of myself
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind
Nobody can stop me turning to madness
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart
Why do you wanna raise these walls
I don't know the meaning of hatred
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies
I only want to hold your love

[Voices in my head]
Stab the dolls filled with hate
Wash yourself with their blood
Drive into the raging current of time
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly
"the earth"
Shout and start creating confusion
Shed your blood for pleasure
And what? For love?
What am I supposed to do?

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Past and future prison my heart
Time is blind
But I wanna trace my love
on the wall of time, over pain in my heart

Art of life
Insane blade stabbing dreams
Try to break all truth now
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain
Cannot start to live, Cannot end my life
Keep on crying

Close my eyes
Time breathes I can hear
All love and sadness
melt in my heart

Dry my tears
Wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my walls

[Voices in my head]
You can't draw a picture of yesterday, so
You're painting your heart with your blood
You can't say "No"
Only turning the wheel of time
with a rope around your neck
You build a wall of morality and take a breath
from between the bricks
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them
You're trying to commit suicide
You're satisfied with your prologue
Now you're painting your first chapter black
You are putting the scraps of life together
and trying to make an asylum for yourself
You're hitting a bell at the edge of the stage
and
You are trying to kill me

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart
Wanna live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I haven't found what I'm looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
But my heart goes to destroy the truth
Tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
Do I try to live, Do I try to love
in my dream

I'm breaking the wall inside my heart
I just wanna let my emotions get out
Nobody can stop
I'm running to freedom
No matter how you try to hold me in your world
Like a doll carried by the flow of time
I sacrificed the present moment for the future
I was in chains of memory half-blinded
Losing my heart, walking in the sea of dreams

Close my eyes
Rose breathes I can hear
All love and sadness melt in my heart
Dry my tears
Wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my mind

Dreams can make me mad
I can't leave my dream
I can't stop myself
Don't know what I am
What lies are truth?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart
Wanna to live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I haven't found what I'm looking for

Art of life
I try to stop myself
But my heart goes to destroy the truth
Tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
Do I try to live? Do I try to love?

Art of life
An Eternal Bleeding heart
You never wanna breathe your last
Wanna live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I'm feeling for
A Rose is breathing love
in my life

-let my heart do the talking...

Can't Let You Go...

2008-02-07T03:23:00.000+08:00

Day every day I'm waking up
To find that you're slipping away
Night after night
I can't fight the emptiness inside
There's nothing I can say
Now I know you're turning me away
It's only on disguise
But you don't have to hide, cause
The truth is in your eyes tonight

I don't want to live a lie
But I don't want to say goodbye
And I can't let you go even though it's over
I just can't let you go
I know your love is growing colder

One look in my eyes and you're realize
You got my heart in your hands
Won't you let me know something more
Where did we go wrong?

I don't want to fight
All I want to do is try to understand
I'm reaching out for you, baby
What can I do
I've been holding on so long

I don't want to live a lie
But I don't want to say goodbye
I can't let you go
Even though it's over
I just can't let you go
Though your love is growing colder

And I can't let you go
Even though it's over

I don't want to live a lie
But I don't want to say goodbye
I want you by my side

And I can't let you go
Even though it's over
I just can't let you go
I feel your love is growing colder
And I can't let you go even though it's over
I just can't let you go
Feel your love growing colder
Don't go

im sorry baby...
i'll make it better, i promise...
give me another shot, when im ready...
coz i'll love u 'til eternity...
i swear to you these...
i'll wait for your return...
im nvr finding someone new...
coz my life won't be the same without you...
-Razlie (bb)

Web Videos...

2008-01-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

simply gt nth to do at home...
watch some web videos..
funny, heartwarming, cool pn ader...

finally..
after a long wait..
the continuation of 'street fighter: the later years' is out..

here it is..

Street Fighter: The Later Years Pt 4

Street Fighter: The Later Years Pt 5

This web video is abt curious kids with great minds..

Hand Vagina

haha... imaginative bunch of bratz..

The Next Video is abt Trickshots...
oh how i wish i could do these tricks...

Trickshots

NEXT!!...
hmm.. a heartwarming one..

Passive Help

after watching tat video..
i realized that...
good-hearted people still exist..

Lastly,
a video tat took a lot of effort to do..
it made me smile.. cute lah org2 tua tu..

People In Order By Age 1-100 On drums

ok dokiez..
tat's all folks...

chow chin chaoz...

The Light of Orion

2008-01-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

hey bloggers..
in today's entry, i like to talk abt smth tat caught my interest..
smth i noe im not qualified to talk abt..
coz im not specialized in it..
(in fact there are alot of things im not qualified to talk abt)

in any case,
i try my best...

the thing tat caught my interest is...
Orion...
to be precise is his belt...
the Orion's belt...

wat issit?
it's stars...
constellation...
the bright-thingy in the sky...
the one kids wish upon...
k, enough..
im sure u guys know wat im talking abt...

y has it caught my interest as u might wonder..
coz its my honey favourite star...

here goes...
im sure u guys have notice the 3 stars tat are aligned diagonally in e nite sky..
well some ppl dont..
coz ur eyes are potek...
the unique stars are called the Orion's Belt..

who is orion?..
a hunter..

here are the explanations n map to guide u along..

λ Ori (Meissa) is Orion's head.

α Ori (Betelgeuse), at its right shoulder, is a red star with a diameter larger than
the orbit of Mars. Although it is the α-star, it is somewhat fainter than Rigel.

γ Ori (Bellatrix), is at Orion's left shoulder.

ζ Ori (Alnitak), ε Ori (Alnilam) and δ Ori (Mintaka) make up the asterism known as
Orion's Belt: three bright stars in a row; from these alone one can recognize Orion.

η Ori (Eta Orionis), between Delta Orionis and Rigel.

κ Ori (Saiph) is at Orion's right knee.

β Ori (Rigel), at the constellation's left knee, is a large blue-white star, among
the brightest in the sky. It has three companions, invisible to the naked eye.

ι Ori (Hatsya) is at the tip of Orion's sword.

Orion is visible in the evenings of November to early May...
And in the morning of late July to November...

Orion is best visible at 2100 in the month of January...
so wat are u waiting for?..
take this opportunity to peek thru ur window or get out of ur house and look up in the sky and spot Orion...

happy hunting the hunter...
get it?..
eh wait...
u cant hunt hunters, they hunt u..
if u hunt hunters, they're not hunters...
Den they must b prey..
n u are the predators...
ouh wait..
watch out..
Aliens are coming after u...
Den shit Alien vs Predator...

Blogger: Oi Fuck!! u talk too much!!...

hehe.. terkluar plak sumer..
kk..
chow chin chaoz..

underneath e stars...
i'll watch over you...

HaPpY nEw YeaR!

2008-01-03T00:55:00.000+08:00

geTtiN awAy frM 2007 atTituDe

hEyA!

bb!!!! i LuV yA taU!!

hmM.. 2008....

i wOnDeR iv im aBLe 2 c smTin greAt

daT cN haPpen 2 mE..

maNe taU anAk raJa masoK miNang

ke.... hahak..

weLL, basically i hope 4 e best in my liFe..

i spent ma new year's nitE

kt Labrador Park wit

bb n frenz..

aniwae deres so many tings in

my mind on dat nite...

which iS e memories of 2007.

dat nite waS oSo amazing..

mayb i jz let ma boO 2 continue dat..

hehek feaR o ma bro dat might

gg hm in any minz...

bb.... i wish i cuD ve tiMe...

i'LL continUe wHen monYet

kuAr g wrK k..

Luv Ya...

hmm..
bb here...
eh salah..
razlie here..
hmm...

new year's eve...
it was a memorable nite..
we recalled our past tat nite...
sweet n sour memories...
funny n stupid pn ader...
and den..
we wished for something new for 2008...

my new year resolution is:

-My relationship with Ry will last long
-Get my bike license
-Get my car license

kk.. chow chin chaoz...

ps: tak abes2 ngan anak raje nk masok minang..
bb da bilang berkali-kali...
anak raje maner yg hensem mcm bb..
anak raje maner yg boleh kasih sayang mcm bb..
n lastly, anak raje tak kaye...
asek mintak duit bapak dier je..
kn senang masok minang raje...
haha..

Happy New Year!!.. & the debut of Dr Love..

2008-01-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

hey peeps...
HAPPY NEW YEAR...
GOODBYE 2007...
WELCOME 2008...
MAY ALL OUR NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS COME TRUE...

finally..
i stepped foot on my house...
after 3 days of not being at home...
and 4 nites of sleepover...

it was a great experience..
a lot of things happen..
everything change my life..
the things i learn...
hmm.. alot..

i learn alot about relationship...
in a relationship...
the most important thing abt it is TRUST...
den followed by HONESTY, CARE N SHARE & LOVE...
i learned how to trust MORE on my honey...

wen it comes to honesty..
im being honest wif her all e time..

care n share.. hmm..
i do care abt her.. n i do share to her abt everything tats in my mind...

finally, love..
i LOVE her alot...
i will give my my best to make my relationship werk...
coz i cherish it..
i wont let go...
something great happen to ur life, will u let it go?..
no rite..?

im an optimist..
i will try make things werk til i die...
im no loser whu juz gives up...
coz i noe...
one day, all my hard work will pay off...
all my efforts..

juz TRUST mi on this one..
trust the doctor love...

n i, dr.love, has a new patient whu consulted mi recently...
he remains to be anonymous...
bt after hearing his story..
this is wat i have to say...

i believe true love exist...
we always wish for a true love...
bt sometimes..
the other party juz cant accept the true love tat their partner gave...
how sad...

some gals might admire a guy 4 the love he gave a gal b4...
wen tat gal gt her hands on him..
the guy treated her even far more better with much more love...
bt sadly...
she doesnt cherish it...

my advise is..
juz be patient n dun stop believing...

chow chin chaoz...

i wanna noe wat love is...

i want u to show me...
i wanna feel wat love is...
i know u can show me...

ThaNk U!

2007-12-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

DeaR bLog,

it's an honour to have the chance

to share

blog wit ma beloved boi.....

i may not

alwaes be here noting down every

second of Ma LifE

bt to highlight u guys on our memories

which means alot to us..

intoducing MaseLf.... ma namE is gorgeous.

nah.... jZ kiDDing..

nw, i KinDa waiTing 4 ma resuLts..

hopefuLLy

i gt 2 achieve it.. even iV nt...

i'LL tRy

Ma veRy beSt in e FutuRe...

hahahaK.. yeEPee!..

"it's hoLidaE.. ALhaMduLiLLah[haLLeujah]"

hMm..

LastLy, iM veRy siMpLe n huMbLe..

beLieve iT?

weLL jZ Trust mE oN diZ.

wat i hOpe 4 iN diZ bLog..

heRe iaM

Jz 2 contibute e joy n

2 sHarE

our tots in diz bLog..

proMisE

diz blog iS meant 4 u guys to reaD..

nu oFfeNce

bt tHe tRuth...

joLLy weLL enjoY it..

the End!

Welcome Honey...

2007-12-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

dear blog...

i would like to take this opportunity...

to welcome my precious honey...

to the world of blogging...

well..

its like...

the revolution of http://www.potrait-emotion.blogspot.com/...

n once again...

WELCOME HONEY!!!....

I LOVE U, HONEY...

Total Cuteness...

2007-12-14T04:20:00.000+08:00

hello bloggerz...
long time nvr update...
nth to say...
tats y..
bz pn ader...
malas pn ader...

hmm.. orite..
hmm.. 2dae...
wat did i do...?
ahh...
went to skool...
after skool, at ard 3, i went to changi airport to take my pay...
den i mit up wif Ry whu juz finished werk...
picked her up...
went to watch a movie..
we went to our favourite cinema..
THE CATHAY...

we watch the show...
Alvin and The Chipmunks...

hahah...
its a great show...
i did not regret watching it...
Ry and I laughed our hearts out during the show..
and the show its completely filled with cuteness..
aww.. cute sak...
especially Theodore...
cant blame him..
fell down from a tree at birth..
hahah...

how i wish i could have them around my house...
really cute sak...
the movie basically stress on friendship n family...
treat each other better...
dont be greedy...
and the other thing i like abt the chipmunks is tat..
each of them has its own characteristics..
u must listen to every word they say...
smtimes its full of sarcasm n jokes...
i love the chipmunks lah...

after watching the show...
we went to eat at mcdonalds at PS...
den an unforeseen circumstance happened..
hahah...
keco...

after tat..
i sent Ry back home...
sent her to sleep...
den kissed her goodnite...
n left for home...

Sweet Dreams Honey...

peace out...
chow chin chaoz...

n lastly..

Bb love u Ry...

[Ry & Tigger - Melts my heart w their cuteness... ]

so shut ur eyes...
kiss me good bye...
n sleep...

The hardest part is letting go of,
Your dreams...

Juz to let u all know...

2007-12-05T00:57:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
1st thing 1st...
ever wonder wat an sms or a little msg typed can lead to...?
hmm...
it can lead to a misunderstanding...
it is because...
these things cant be saed juz like how u want to say it out....
the tone...
for example..
here am i joking n saying out things without the motive of anything evil...
bt ppl tend to misunderstood it...
ppl tend to feel tat i'm insulting n hurting them...

wen i wrote my 2nd last post..
there's no aim of hurting anyone...
its all the fact...
even if it hurts...
i was totally fooling ard...
coz i tried to answer all the questions tat were asked...
im being honest...
cant accept the truth?...
den tat's too bad..

i really dunno wat the hell is going on wif u guys..
n i dont intend to know..
coz i been handling probs after probs..
juz when i was abt to take a breather..
smth else pops out...

everything i did was never enough for u rite?..
here u are insulting n spitting vulgar at me..
wat did i do wrong?..
cant stand my jokes?..

aku takde niat nk kecik kn hati kau pn...

i had enough of senseless arguments...
if anything i say or do tat insult or hurt u...
n i'll put my ego down n say im sorry...

Letter of Apology

2007-11-30T01:55:00.000+08:00

dear blog,
this is just my apology letter...
akon's inspiration...
"sorry, blame it on me"

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
especially to my Ry
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things i want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry for the times I made you mad
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am a jerk like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that i put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to feel so sad
Just trying to stay low when you were mad
Just feel wanna give you an apology kiss
As one big family with love and bliss

If I could i would once again make you sing
I got my views which you didn’t agree
I got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry but i feel really like a thief
I’m sorry that we hook up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that ego came and took me away

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
I wasn't myself but just a freak
I’m sorry for my guts that you have dealt
For the embarrassment that you felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
I'll would do anything even bring you a sun
I’m sorry but please don't shut me down
I hope you can manage better next time around
How was I to know that i made you rage
Every things okay that you might say
And I don’t wanna anybody to take blame
All I want to hear is just my name
Cause I’m just a loser living with all my pain
Because I care for you, I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

im sorry for everything...
Ry...

Lie or truth?... U decide...

2007-11-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

Dear blog....
alahai...
was tagged...
so got to do this stuff..
as always...
i'll do it..
bt i wont pass or tag to another person...
malas lah..! malas...! kau tau tak?...

here i go:

FAVOURITE!
Colour: Black, Green...
Food: Ikan Bawal Sweet & Sour...
Movie: Comedy n Action Movies...
Sport: Soccer...
Day of the Week: Any day.. Everyday is é Same...
Season: Alah (upstairs).. Singapore maner ader ni bende.. asek panas je... tak panas, hujan...
Ice Cream: Chocolate, Cookies & Cream..

CURRENT!
Mood: Relax... Bt miss my Ry...
Clothes: Boxers only...
Current Desktop: Pic of Bb & Ry...
Current Time: 1:13am
Surroundings: In my 'artistic' room... (mcm kapal pecah lagik ader uh)
Current Annoyances: Doing this stupid thing...
Current Thoughts: Ry..

FIRST!
Best Friend: Blackjacks...
Crush: cant rmbr my first crush...
Movie: Isabella... lamer tu..
Lie: First lie?.. ouh dulu uh... maseh baby... eksyen nangis gare2 nak isap tetek... mmmm fav tau... haha...
Music: Iron Maiden... kecik2 da dgr lagu metal...

LAST!
Drink: Air suam...
Car Ride: Last Thursday...
Crush: Only to my Ry...
Phone Call: Juz now.. w Ry..
CD Played: Yngwie Malmsteen Anthology

HAVE YOU EVER?

Dated one of your best friend: No.. all of them are guys... Nak date ape?..
Broken the law: Yup..
Been arrested: da buat prisonbreak ngan scoffield...
Been on TV: Yup.. Kindergarten Days... Now.. catch me on Prisonbreak...
Kissed someone you dont know: No... A dumb thing to do...

Random 5 things you are good at:
1) Compose songs...
2) Play guitar...
3) Drawing...
4) Bathe someone... eh salah.. bathe my cat...
5) Lie... it's in é blood.. eh salah.. it's in my name..

Answer the following questions:

The person who tagged you is :
Nuralina...

Your relationship with him/her is :
my Ex...

Your impression of him/her :
kaki tangan dalam perot... diam diam lepu... first impression mcm minah rep... lembab... wakaka...

The most memorable thing he/she has done for you :
bad memorable stuff or good?.. haha..
good: wen she's by the hospital bed...
bad: byk uh...

If he/she becomes your lover, you will :
once n never...

If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she have to improve :
stress the word IF!.. hmm... dun keep secrets... belo!..

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will :
buat bodoh sua...

If he/she becomes your enemy the reason is :
reason?... ape seh?... hmm pembastard kot... haha... or hurt my Ry in any way..

Your overall impression of him/her :
kadang2 ader jugak lembab... (jgn ckp org, kau pon samer!..)

How do you think ppl ard you will think abt that person :
haha.. no comments...

The character you love yourself are :
the NEW me... more patient...

On the contrary, the character you hate yourself :
Sensitive.. Protective.. Kuat Jealous...

The most ideal person you want to be is :
a better me...

For ppl that care & likes you, say something to them :

"erm.. erm... test mic... assalamualaikum... saye ingin mengucapkn ribuan terima kasih kepade darling saye iaitu Faten Hanani, keluarga saye dan kawan2 saye yg telah menyokong saye... tanpa anda sumue.. saye tak akan berade di sini... dan juge kepade peminat2 saye yg menonton lakonan saye di dlm cerite prisonbreak... saye tau... saye cute... mcm arwah nye jugak... sekian terime kaseh... chao chin chowz..."

[bb & ry]

Journey wif mi to the end...
til death do us part...
even thru thick n thin...
i'll treasure ur heart...
-razlie

Noordin Fishing Trip...

2007-11-13T00:52:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
as u can see from the title..
today's entry is about...

(rudely interrupted)
Bloggerz: Noordin sape siol...? namer baek sak...

Razlie: Hek eleh...!! Noordin pon tk tau... BAPAK kau nye laki uh...!
asek menyampok je... anak haram...

kk.. back to topic...
we went to Noordin beach (located at Pulau Ubin) for our fishing trip...

we met in the morning at 7...
due to some unforeseen circumstances..
i decided to wake up early..
slept at 3am.. woke up at 5am...

den went to Bukit Batok to fetch Ry...
as she decided to tag along...
i met the cheerful gal n proceeded to Lakeside n met the rest..

upon arriving at Changi Village..
we took the bumpboat to Pulau Ubin...
next we ride on Ah Huat's van to reach our destination..

when we arrived at the beach...
we picked our spot..
n set up the tent n our fishing gears...

ate our breakfast n did more fishing...
we played cards n joke ard to get rid of our boredom...

and...
i taught Ry on how to fish...
hmm, she got potential...
told her to be patient n don't give up...
one thing abt her is tat...
she is not squirmish to worms or bugs..
i really admired tat...
not all galz can do tat...
these applies to guys too...
squirmish abt this kind of thing...
haiyo...

Hazmi n Hafiz caught a FEW fish..
while others caught weird things...
such as slipper, thrash etc...
i caught none...
well, not a problem to me..
maklumlah rezeki tkde...

we end our fishing ard 6pm...
den headed back to mainland...
we ate our dinner at Changi Village..
and the i headed back home...
after sending ry back home tat is...
reach home ard 0000...
n go to bed...
yawnzzz....

here are the pics...

[the cheerful gal of mine]

[our morning faces]

[leaving the mainland]

[the bumpboat ride]

[and again]

[again... we cant stop taking pictures...]

[arrived at Noordin Beach]

[Iqbal n Hafiz]

[getting ready to fish]

[fishermen]

[wat a creepy-looking tree]

[Survivor 10: Noordin]

[Hafiz wif his mouth full]

[admiring the bug]

[the moment when hazmi caught a fish]

[the moment when Hafiz caught a fish]

[fishing can b quite stressful sometimes]

[the moment Hafiz caught a fish... again..]

[comparison between them.. i mean, the fishes...]

[heading back]

[my biggest catch...]

ok.. chow chin chaoz...

look forward to another trip...

[us, lovebirds...]

Love u so much....
6.9.7

Happy 17th Birthday & 2nd Monthsary, Ry...

2007-11-12T01:50:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
time to update my blog...
gt the pictures..
so gt to update...

on 8/11...
it's Ry's Birthday tat is...
i put up a special plan for her...
spent wif her the whole day...
hmm...
ok lah...
my plan was simple...
a simple date...

i decided to celebrate Ry's birthday n our 2nd month anniversary at the same time..
so it will be much more special...
it's a first time experience for her to celebrate her bdae wif a guy...
so like im the first..
n hopefully the only...
insyallah...

first of all...
i met wif Ry at Bukit Batok ard 4...
then took her to Bugis...
told her tat we are eating there..
bear in mind...

Bloggerz sial: EH! ader bear ah kat mind dier... ishh.. camne tu...?

Razlie: Kepale BAPAK kau...!! bear in mind pn tak tau ape maksod...
susah ader bloggerz mcm korg...!!

as i was saying..
bear in mind tat she does not have any idea abt the plan...
i only told her tat it's going to be a simple date...
due to low budget n nt werking...
hmm..
eating at BUGIS...
of coz her totz wud be tong seng coffeeshop..
haha...
come on...
im not tat kedekut..
i've been saving for this special day...

brought her to eat at SWENSEN'S...
hmmm..
eat to ur our fill..
ate our maincourse den..
ordered desserts...

after eating...
we sat down n look at the hot air balloon...
den i told her tat im gonna take her up to the sky...
she asked me how..
i replied, "up... (pointing to the balloon)..."
she responded "hah.. bb.. u joking.. u cant afford it rite..."

eheh budak ni...
so we walked towards the balloon ground...
she kept trying to tell herself tat im kidding...
den wen i purchased the tickets...
she was speechless...
million dollar expression...
told her , "cant believe it?... well... believe it..."

we went up...
to the sky...
wow..
the view n feeling was great...
and again WOW...
its so high up...
how i wish i cud skydive...
at the highest peak where the balloon cud go...
i gave her my gift....

(find out wat's the gif urself lah ye...)

after getting our feet on the ground...
haha..
get it..?
nvm if u dont...
slowpokes..

we met up wif the Blackjacks at Outram...
n went jamming...

after jamming...
we went to long john silver's at Clarke Quay Central...
we splitted with the guys...
n continue wif our day...
in this case it's NIGHT...

we walked to the CATHAY..
n catch a movie ard 2330...
we watched the BEE MOVIE...
hilarious show...

after the show...
sat down outside the cathay...
den we took cab home...
sent her to her house...
den make my way back..

told u it's a SIMPLE DATE...

here are the pics...

[back in black]

[my addiction]

[im not promoting any drinks]

[caution hot!!...]

[cepat snap... perot da lapar ni..]

[want some?...]

[u can hav some...]

[tapi jgn lah abeskn due2 skali...]

[the balloon]

[great experience]

[believe it now, dont u?]

[the view]

[happy birthday syg...]

ok..
tat's all folks...
time to call my syg...
hehehe...

[till death do us part]

I love u so much...
6.9.7

Night Cycling...

2007-11-01T01:57:00.000+08:00

dear blog....
jz came back...
supposingly gt to werk 2dae..
bt overslept...
so...
fuck it lah...
hahah....

i spent my day at Ry's house...
she did her MT papers in e' morning...
nth much to talk abt wat happen in the day...
bt at nite...
we went cycling...
yes..!!
u heard me rite...
cycling...!!

borrowed her dad's bike...

we went to cycle to pandan reservoir...
wow..
long time since i cycled...
it was tiring...
n a good workout for both of us...
(badan byk lemak...)

"the bike was great...
the journey was greater...
spending the nite with her was the greatest...."

kk.. chow chin chaoz...

i love her so much.....
6.9.7.

A380 Experience Starts Here...

2007-10-31T02:01:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
jz came back from werk...
its been a long time...
the last time i werk was a few days before hari raya...
now im back to werk...
coz its e-learning week...
like the RSM said...
"no money den come werk..."
haha..
quite true...

hmm..
today's werk was a breeze...
juz slacked all the way...
lazy lah...
no mood to werk u noe...

i prefer spending my time with Ry or my frenz...
miss her lah...
nvr fail to fetch her from skool after her o level...
bt 2dae had to miss it...

ok... back to topic..
n start the ball rolling...
today my last flight was SQ221...
departure 2030 hours...
to Sydney...
n guess wat...?
its the new Airbus A380...
wow..
its like huge...
n cute...
gemok tapi montel..
the wingspan is so long...
the '*hole 5' is pathetic...
(*the part of the plane where cargo and loose baggage is loaded by us...)
it is so small...
even the door is small...
need to baby crawl to get inside...
inside the hole...
i cant even stand up...
had to bend down...
haiyo...

n one more thing...
as we all noe...
the plane is new..
n Singapore Airlines is the first airline to use it...
first to maintain lah...
first to handle lah..
first to serve lah...
well im the first to blog abt it...

and if it even so...
sssssssoooooooo.....!!!
wat's the deal of having 18 angmohs (australians to be specific) to check on everything...?
come on lah...
trust us SATS..
we noe how to handle our fucking job...
if u enjoy the pleasure of watching us do our werk...
y dont u take our job...?
im sure it will be great...
damn u...

hmm...
Ry's birthday is coming up...
i'm going to spend the time wif her...
n..
shhhhh....
i planned a surprise for her....
keep it from her...
haha...

kk.. chow chin chaoz..

here are e' pics of my A380 Experience...

[the small entrance of the hole i was talking abt]

[the interior of the hole 5]

[slacking inside the hole 5]

[blur image of A380... Singapore is very proud of it... its obvious...]

[the A380]

my blog, my rule......

2nd day Hari Raye... with Peeps

2007-10-30T01:46:00.001+08:00

dear blog...
it was a memorable day...

for the first time,
no need to ride the MRT or bus...
we Raya wif style...
divide ourselves into two groups...
the 'van' group & the 'car' group...
tis time Ry could not tag along...
she needs to study for her 'o' level...
abit sad
bt i dun wan her to neglect her studies..

i was in the car group...
keco lah...
naek krete mcm naik roller-coaster...
pekik saner.. pekik sini...
especially Hafiz...
siket2 suroh horn...
apek jln kat depan pon nak horn...
Hafiz.. Hafiz...

firstly, we rendezvous at Ry's house...
i met Hafiz n Asrida, Hazmi n Razi at Bukit Batok....
i lead e' way to Ry's house..
n we walked there....
woo....
amacam ader gerek tak?..
dekat pe...
haha...
ok.. i admit..
i purposely dun wan to take bus...
asked them to walk...
n enjoy the heat...
wakakaka...

the 2nd house...
we went to Sadiq's house...
here is where we splitted into 2 groups...
then Rafie's...
then mine...
after completing the Taman Jurong area...
we proceeded to Tampines...
raye at cikgu Sapii's...
den we went to Shikin's at Teban...
we complete the day at Razi's...
n watch soccer!!!...

LIVERPOOL vs ARSENAL...
KNN...
wanted Arsenal to lose...
bt it was a draw!..
after e' match we went home...
ard 0230..
i reached home...

fun...

kk..
chow chin chaoz...

joke of the day:
HAFIZ: "zi, mak kau ok?..."
RAZI: "(*short pause) mee goreng..."

belo nye Razi...
org tanyer laen..
laen bende plak dijawab...

wakakaka....

here are e' pics

[hafiz, asrida, me n rafie]

[me, rafie n hamizan]

[the GANG]

[weee]

[the 'CAR' group]

[the guyz]

[abes.. keco..]

[the 'CAR']

PIC OF THE DAY....

[BALEK KAMPONG.. OHH...OHH...OHH..]

confessions...

2007-10-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

dear blog,
before i'm attached to the best gal of my life...
i was prepared for any obstacles along e way...
its going to be tough...
i knew tat..

people's view, her past, my past etc...
i was ready for tat...
n i was right...
it is tough...

bt i dun care...
i wanna be wif her...
regardless of wat ppl tink or say...
regardless of wat problems we faced...
regardless of race, language or religion..
eh salah...
tu pledge dah...

erm.. erm..
serious..

wat i noe is tat...
i nvr felt tis kind of love in my life...
i nvr been love like this before...
i noe wat love is now...
its painful sumtimes...
bt its been great...

i appreciate every moment...
i cherish every moment...

i luv everything abt u...

i'll trade my life for ur pain...

we are happy...

Complicated Me...

2007-10-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

not a good day....
seriously no...
things happen...
i tried to swallow everything tat has been thrown at mi...

i noe...
its hard....
im filled with anger...

its hard...
to control my actions...
wen my feelings are controlling it...

feel like i wanna explode...
bt i dun wan to be the OLD me...
i got rid of tat me... long ago...

and again...
its hard...
coz i am the jealous lover...

i tried to seal my feelings...
bt i cant...
with the anger in me...
i feel like erupting like a volcano ...
bt this volcano has been asleep...
for quite some time...

i'm more patient now...
bt i'm getting more sensitive...
i have my limit...
n don't make me break tat limit...
seriously...
u won't like it...

"i respect tat u guys were smth...
bt pls...
im nt transparent...
im nt blind...
im nt a wall behind u...
bt pls know ur limits...
it's different now since i came to the picture...
u can't wish 'it' to be the same as before...
nt till i'm out of the picture...
(n i bet u tat i'll never be)
n learn this lesson...
is all abt RESPECT..."

it's not tat i dun allow...
i'm nt selfish...
bt limits must still be applied...
to both of u...

seriously im disappointed...
i felt like SHIT...
flushed down the toilet bowl...
n into the sewers...
n left mi there to get washed away...

"Here am i worried abt u...
looking out for u...
yet u're laughing away...
it's not the time to make or laugh at stupid jokes...
or start to feel like giving up...
it's time to get serious...
it's for ur future..."

It's an honest mistake to be there...
the pain was unbearable...

hey fren!.. can i borrow ur noose?...
i'll return it to you, once i'm done...

...

2007-10-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

I'M
LOST...

"i'll NEVER leave you, RY...
i'll be by ur side...
dun u worry..."

this i promise u...

Nightmare on Elm Street...

2007-10-18T23:08:00.001+08:00

hmm...
juz like to update abt wat happened the past days...
been bz tu update...
no time to switch on comp...

all i want to say in this post is...

"MY NIGHTMARE CAME TRUE...
I'VE GOT TO STAY STRONG...
AFTER KNOWING THE TRUTH...."

bt my feelings won't change...
it wud onli make it stronger...

geez... i gt to start to trust more on my nightmares...
coz it conveys a msg and visions....
a bad OMEN...

"i'll be there for you...
this 5 words i swear to you...
when u breathe, i will be the air for you...
i'll be there for you..."

"i'll live n i'll die for you...
i'll steal sun from the sky for you...
words can't say what love can do...
i'll be there for you..."

Bb love u, Ry...

Selamat Hari Raya...

2007-10-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

[alamak.. blur... go GREEN family...]

harlow peeps...
first of all...
sori for the late update...
been veri veri busy wif life...

hmmm...
CAMAT ARI RAYE!!..
UII... happi betol...
dpt pakai baju kurong baru...
dpt jumpe sedare mare...
yup...

spent my hari raye jalan2...
till late nite...
wen the cuzzins meet..
we update each other abt our life...
studies lah.. relationship lah... NS ke hape...

ah...
the fav. part of raye is...
dapat mkn sampai boncet...
makan sepuas2 nye..
da mcm jin 10 tahun tak mkn...
hahah...
maklumlah...
puase sebulan...
ape lagik..
lantak uh...

tats all folks..

aku ingin memohon minta maaf kepade sume kawan2 ku...
jike ader tersilap kater, terkasar bahase...
prasaan korg tersinggung ke...
aku menyusun 10 jari dan...
dgn seikhlas2 nye...
aku minta maaf...

Slamat menyambot hari raye...

chow chin chaoz....

utk Ry sayang:
"bb... minta maaf jike bb hurt ur feelings in anyways...
bb, luv u... veri much..."

Another Geylang Day...

2007-10-08T02:01:00.002+08:00

hey blogz...
the time is coming...
Hari Raya is around the corner...

bloggers: "corner maner?"

Razlie: "corner tepi tangge rumah bapak kau!!.. wakaka.."

ok...
i spent my day today at Geylang!..
AGAIN...
nt wif my family..
bt wif Ry, Mizan n Fiza...

it was a great day...
n Ry gt sumthing to say abt it...

she said..
"It was a sweet & sweating day...
bt both of us enjoy it...
I'm all wet..
Nt becoz of the drizzling...
bt bcoz i'm perspiring like hell...
(which is true, i agree)
My Bb *perah minyak..
(*squeeze oil)
Nt becoz he's angry...
Bt bcoz of hormones..
(?? i admit my face went oily...)"

seriously it was a great day...
we had fun shopping...
first we break our fast at KFC City Plaza...

den we shopped for our stuff..
we went to search for Fiza's baju kebaye...
den Ry's bro baju kurong..
den Mizan's...
after tat a lot of stuff tat Ry wanted to buy..
such as kueh mueh, tempat bekas kueh, table cloth etc..
keco lah...
bought stuff like a newly wed couple getting their house ready for their first raye...
haha..

den we bought summore foods..

den we headed back..
tot of going to Aljunied with Mizan..
bt i was carrying alot of plastic bags..
bulky summore.
think again gt to sent Ry home..
catch the last bus...
so changed my mind n headed back home..

really it was a great day..
first time experience for both Ry & myself..
to be committed in these things...
k, thnx Mizan & Fiza for the accompany...
both of u guyz are really keco...

chow chin chaoz...

Can't stop falling in LOVE with you...

Happy Monthsary Baby...

2007-10-08T02:01:00.001+08:00

hey bloggerz...
&...
HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY!!...

like i said before...
time passes so fast...
my wish is...
"looking for a bright future in our relationship....
obstacles may come n go...
bt i'll never let u go..."

hmm, wanted to update yesterday bt...
there's some lagginess to my comp...
so i'll update today...

how i spent my time yesterday...
*we went to clarke quay to break our fast...
we as in Iqbal, Hazmi, Hafiz, Asrida, Sadiq, Rafie, Hamizan, Izwan, Dilly, Ry & myself...
tis time, Isk n Razi were unable to join us...

during our break fast,
wakaka..
keco lah...
Mizan gt difficulty breathing...
haha.. slengeh...
he did not bring his inhaler, he found the thing dumb to bring along...

after eating, we went to chill at Fort Canning Park...
tot at first of going to Geylang..
bt feel half-hearted to leave..
so made plans wif Mizan to go Geylang the nxt day...
back to story..
we climbed the long slopes n series of steps to reach the top...
den we make our way to Peninsula 7-eleven...
Izwan treated all of us drinks!!..
thx uh Wan...
den Sadiq, Hafiz n Asrida went their seperate ways...
Sadiq gt his stupid curfew to comply...
haha...

btw, MANCHESTER UNITED WON 4-0...!!
(glory, glory man united!!)
ok enough..
dun get sidetrack..

the rest of us make our way to the Esplanade,
den it started to drizzle...
we chilled outside esplanade for awhile...
one thing tat all of us discovered...
Dilly n Rafie can't stop disturbing each other...
haha..
keco lah tu Rafie...

ard 2230..
we make our way to the MRT...
n headed back home...
i sent Ry home...
bt b4 tat...
i n Ry chilled wif Dilly...
talk abt sumthings...
we talked till passed midnight..

so gt to take cab home...
tat's all folks...

chow chin chaoz...

Geylang Day...

2007-10-06T03:00:00.000+08:00

hello chickies & dickies
2dae my day was quite fun lah...

after the friday prayers,
we (as in the BLACKJACKS) went Jamming...
after tat...
went to JE library....
juz to kill time...
den we moved off..

den i went to JP with Hazmi & Iqbal..
went we reached there, we went our seperate ways...
i went to buy food for my mom & Ry...
i bought Kebab at BANQUET... (mmmm...)
(Ry was craving for it)

den i went to Ry's place n sent the kebab...
she had no idea tat i was doing this...
called her..
n surprised her lah...

den i received a msg from mom...
she said she's going to Geylang after break fast...
i was like..
y tell mi last minute sey...
now i gt to rush home...
took cab...
(coz i was late for break fast, got a cab ard 7.05pm)

wen i reached home..
i ate...
den we moved off...

wen we reached Geylang...
haiyo...
fucking crowded lah...
want to find a parking spot was tough...

the things i hate abt Geylang...
knn, hot like oven sia...
i was sweating like i just finished my morning run....
den sumore gt alot of matrep...

everytime i go to Geylang...
there's always a scene...
for example just now..
a group of youngsters was surrounded by 10 C.I.D.s
in my heart i was saying...
(padan muker nenek korg)
*serve ur grandma rite

but the part where shopping wif my family was fun & enjoyable..
i as the joker of the family...
will always make jokes abt everything...
we will laugh n kekek lah...
hahah.. kekek siol..

this year my family is going GREEN...
nt for SAVE THE EARTH campaign uh...
come on lah...
bt for hari raye...
i bought a set tat cost $65...
den bought kain samping agik...
yessah... this year's set is like my cheapest set of all...
usually will cost more...
(my mom like to go for quality..)
told mom, "kalau boleh budget uh..."
(*if can budget uh)

aites...

the cool thing abt my family is tat...
i can smoke as and wen i like...
freedom katerkn...
(as long as i dun do drugs or get tattoos...)

my mom was tired after walking around looking for stuff..
so she, my dad n myself took a smoking break..
by the side of the road...
cool rite?..

after getting our stuff..
we headed back home...

tmr..
will b another day...
at GEYLANG!..

update you soon....

HAPPY MONTHSARY BABY!!

chow chin chaoz...

Love u... RY..
697

mmmm.... BAGUS!...

2007-10-05T02:38:00.001+08:00

ok peeps...

2dae tot of going to Geylang wif my family...

to shop for hari raya stuff..

that was the initial plan...

bt, my mom last minute made it to another day...

postponed..

(make up ur mind lah, Thursday or Saturday!!..)

err..ok...

bt im nt worried...

or disappointed...

im quite glad actually...

made plans to break fast with Ry..

went to IMM & eat at BAGUS....

hmm..

quite pack wif malay customers...

no wonder they named it BAGUS instead of GOOD or 好 (is this right?)...

i ate chicken cheese baked rice with mushroom soup..

mmm... Sedap...

den we went to Jurong East Entertainment juz to kill time...

bt i dun care how i spent my time wif her...

as long as she's by my side, i'm glad...

den we sat outside & chatted...

the one thing tat we never fail to do is tat...

we keep sharing & talking abt our lives...

our motto : 'No secrets between us'

wow.. this saturday...

our first month anniversary...

time passes so fast...

the time we spent together...

the disagreement we had...

the things we shared...

the joy we had...

all tat's wat keep us stronger...

i thank u for coming to my life...

i'll cherish you & my every moment with you...

& one more thing...

LIVERPOOL LOST!!..

wakaka...

*padan muker nenek korg...

(*serve ur grandma right!)

chow chin chaoz...

*i tried my best to write my blog in English...

for the sake of my non-malay fren...

if dun understand den try to understand lah...

*slengeh bacen betol kau!!...

(*really cute & pretty u!!)

haha..

i LOVE u... Ry...

6.9.7

A Great Day Out..

2007-10-03T02:51:00.001+08:00

dear blog...
sori for the delay...
really wan to update abt this...
but due to the delay of getting the pictures...
gt to postpone the schedule..
(cheywah.. bebual mcm Donald Trump... bisnesman...)

kk..
on errrr...
(jap eh, tgk calendar jap...)

on 29th September 07, finally...
the blackjacks n others wen out to break fast 2gether...
except for hafiz that is...
he gt to accompany his sick gf...
understand, understanded, understood, understooded...

we went to break our fast at..
Tong Seng Restaurant..
mcm paham..
padahal bkan restaurant..
(kedai kopi kat Bugis tu lah... jual mknan ciner tp halal...)

i n ry ordered our fav. dish..
the minced chicken fishball noodle...
n the rest also ordered the same dish...
by coincidence...
end up the whole table was filled with the same dish...
except for mizan n fiza... (cam gini spell namer dier eh?.. sebat uh..)
they ordered smth diff..

after eating the guys decided to pray at the mosque...
except for mi n mizan...
i wanted to accompany ry n tok to mizan..

den....
we went shisha-ing...
haha... da lamer tak gi bershisha..
(abes bahase melayu aku..)
we all chatted, joked, laughed...
it was a great time...
n i enjoyed myself...
it's seldom tat we gt to spend our time like this...
so i really cherished every moment of it...

after all tat...
we went to esplanade..
the guys chatted b4 moving off home..
we caught the last train...
pheww...
kalau tak... naek night rider uh...

Here are some of the pics...

[The gang]

[dilly: ape diq.. tgk aku tu mcm?]
[diq: aku tgk kau isap shisha aku stim uh...]

[mizan: kecik uh ni ciner nye...]

[razlie: kecik ke besar ke... tak heran uh...]

[akibat kuat bershisha]

[non-smokerz corner...]
[isk: tsk.. pe-rokok,pe-rokok...]
[razi: main PSP agik bagus..]
[mi: (berkhayal sambil bersenyum di hati)]

[berkekek tgk video]

kk.. chow chin chaoz...

Love u Baby...697

Another Day Out...

2007-09-23T04:31:00.001+08:00

okiez blog...
2dae seriously gt no plan at all..
blackjacks sume bz...
so planning to buke ramai2 sumwhr ard next week...

so made plans to mit up wif darling at JP...
i had to run an errand for mom...
she ask mi to buy lulur..
den i asked her at whr sey...
at JP kedai jamu...
alamak.. kene masok kedai jamu plak...

masok kedai jamu...
hahah... kekek...
makcik tu pon keco lah...

den i felt thirsty n craving for something....
so we went to coffee bean..
i bought pure choco n a slice of cake of a thousand leaves...
dunno y its called tat...
i cant find any leaves in it...

we sat sumwhr den talk abt stuff...
she wants to noe abt the supernatural stuff...
soi talked abt it..
shes scared but curious...
pelik...

den sent her home...

so tats how i spent my day....

Another Good Day....

2007-09-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

hello ding-a-lingz...
(eh, sialah ding-a-lingz... mcm buah pelir siol...)
haha.. kk..

2dae wen out...
after the friday prayers, did not go jamming...
bored.. bt already gt plan to go out wif darling...
so nt tat bored...

as usual, picked her up at Bukit Batok...
den wen to City Hall...
we wen to the foodcourt at Marina Square...
as usual.. NASI AYAM PENYET beb...
blackjacks favourite Nasi Ayam Penyet stall....
(nk buat endorsement ngan dorg uh.. mcm paham..)
tis time i ordered with more rice..

my darling ate smth else...
nasi wif lauk lemak cili padi wif honey black pepper chicken wif hotdogs...
plus popiah basah...
tsk..tsk... makan besar tu...
errkhh.. buke puase mkn tu... saket perot sak...

after eating, we felt bloated...
n then smoked Marlboro Red Medium lah...
ferst time trying it...
it taste alrite...
much smoother...
much 'healthier'...
less in nicotine, less in tar...

(the pack design is nice)

den we sat down at the steps...
we saw.. Hamizan...
haha... dier pon buke nasi ayam penyet...
(told u... blackjacks fav. stall...)

den we walked towards the merlion park...
otw thr, we saw Khairee n his gal...
haha... Khairee nk step pranjatkn org uh...
bt i saw him frm far...
(dgn mater dier yg terbeliak tu... saper yng tak nmpk.. except darling uh...)
den continue moving towards merlion park...

wen we reached thr we sat down...
den we chat.. (chat je...)
ard 11plus we made a move home...

sent her home...
den took cab home coz no more bus...
reached home ard 1...

lately, my mom doesnt care wat time i go back home...
~weee...

kk.. chow chin chaoz....

(loving her)

You'll Never Be Replaced.

2007-09-17T01:54:00.000+08:00

dear blog,
my entry for 2dae is sumthing tat my heart is saying...
my heart is talking...
talking abt my feelings...
abt my...
Darling...

Here what it says...

To my darling...
i juz want u to know tat...
i really love u...
from the bottom of my heart...
I sealed my heart for u...
no one can replace u...

since u came to my life...
u became my addiction...
i can survive without my Marlboro...
i can't survive without u.. no.. no..

no matter wat obstacles is ahead of us...
no matter wat ppl say abt us...
my feelings for u will nvr change..

my love for you can nvr fade...
please trust my honest n sincere heart...

i miss u every nano-seconds wen u r not wif mi...
i'll protect u wif my only life...

u noe how hard it was for me to move on...
bt u changed my heart completely...
n u made me believe tat true love exist...

Once u seep in under my skin...
There's nothing in this world that could wash u away...

to conclude this entry...

I LOVE YOU... MY DARLING ANGEL...

[whu says tat a devil n an angel can't be together?]

i am no romeo, or brad pitt...
bt..
she's someone whu accepts me for who i am...
n im really touched...

chow chin chaoz...

my idols.the WORLD'S idol.

2007-09-16T00:41:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
2dae im gonna tok abt my idols...
whu r they?...
wat makes them my idol?...
wat did they do?..
well.. ur questions will be answered.. no worries...

my idols are...
the IRON MAIDEN...

if u are a fan of them... den i salute u...
if you're not n never heard of them...
well, its time for u to get updated...

IRON MAIDEN is the most successful n influential heavy metal band in the world..
how influential are they?..
other than having fans from all around the world...
here's another proof of their influence..

(david beckham caught wearing Iron Maiden shirt)

Iron Maiden were formed in 1975 (that's way back.. i'm not even born yet) by bassist Steve Harris...
their achievements are spectacular...
n tat makes them fucking rich...
how rich r they?..
here's one proof...

[ta-daa]

I've been listening to Iron Maiden since i was 5 - 7 years old...
all thanks to my dad...
i remembered that i memorized the lyrics at tat age...
bt wat mesmerized me is tat...
this band juz keep on going...
they released quite a number of albums...
all with pure quality and great music in them...

soon a thriller movie titled Chemical Wedding will be released...
the original screenplay is by Bruce Dickinson (Iron Maiden's Vocalist)..
the movie is about the reincarnation of Aleister Crowley (British most evil man)...

ahh btw...
recently i juz found out that...
there is a female band formed to tribute the Iron Maiden...
they called themselves...
The Iron Maidens...
how cheeky...
bt they got the talents n bodies (hehe)...

The World's Only Female Tribute to Iron Maiden...
Listen to their cover on the 'The Trooper', 'Phantom of The Opera' n 'Hallowed Be Thy Name' on my Music Section located at the Sidebar...
i'll keep updating to ya...

kk..chow chin chaoz...

Web Videos...

2007-09-12T17:38:00.000+08:00

hello peeps...
it's time for another...
Razlie's Wonderful World of Web Videos...

This time the videos posted are based on music...
lyrics to be exact...
sometimes we misheard some of the lyrics in some songs...
well, here a some examples...

Full Moon

This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race

Smell Like Teen Spirit

Welcome To The Black Parade

Blue

Famous Last Words

Living On A Prayer

ok tat's all folks...
pat mat tempeh betol...

wakakaka...

kk.. chow chin chaoz...

Seven Wonders of The World... No More...

2007-09-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
wokeyz..
2dae im gonna tok abt one of my wish in my wishlist...
which one?..
venture the seven wonders of the world...
bt too bad...
i have to erase tat...
i cant accomplish tat..
bcoz...
there's no more seven wonders of the world...
wen i say seven wonders of the world,
i meant the ANCIENT seven wonders of the world...

(*click on the wonders to view it's picture)

here are the 7 wonders:

1) The Great Pyramid of Giza - still standing
2) Hanging Gardens of Babylon - destroyed by earthquake
3) Statue of Zeus at Olympia - destroyed by a Great Fire of the Lauseion
4) Temple of Artemis at Ephesus - destroyed on 21 July 356 BC by an arsonist
5) Mausoleum of Maussollos at Halicarnassus> - destroyed by series of earthquakes
6) Colossus of Rhodes - destroyed by earthquake in 226 BC
7) Lighthouse of Alexandria - destroyed by 2 earthquakes in 1303 n 1323

too bad...
bt im nt gonna let my wish get washed away...
tat's y im making a new wish...
venture the wonders of the world...

Here are the wonders:

Natural Wonders

1) Grand Canyon
2) Great Barrier Reef
3) Harbor at Rio De Janeiro
4) Mount Everest
5) Polar Aurora (Northern Lights)
6) Parícutin Volcano
7) Victoria Falls
8) The Serengeti Migration
9) Galápagos Islands
10) Iguazu Falls
11) Amazon Rainforest
12) Ngorongoro Crater
13) Bora Bora
14) Cappadocia

Underwater Wonders

1) Palau
2) Belize Barrier Reef
3) Deep-Sea Vents
4) Lake Baikal
5) Northern Red Sea

Man-made Wonders

1) Great Pyramids of Giza
2) Great Wall of China
3) Taj Mahal
4) Machu Picchu
5) Bali
6) Angkor Wat
7) Forbidden City
8) Bagan Temples & Pagodas
9) Karnak Temple
10) Teotihuacán
11) Petra
12) Christ the Redeemer
13) Chichen Itza
14) Colosseum
15) Stonehenge
16) Hagia Sophia
17) Leaning Tower of Pisa
18) Cairo Citadel
19) Statue of Liberty
20) Eiffel Tower
21) Kaaba
22) Mosque of the Prophet

wow...
wat a long list...
someday...
i will venture these places...
nt all lah..

bt if u are a nature or travel lover...
den u can't afford to miss this places...

venture these places with someone u love...
foooyo...
it will be one heck of a date...

one day lah eh...
before getting married or wat den i pursue this wish...
ok..
sayonara...

chow chin chaoz...

(# source of reference are from Wikipedia)

6.9.7

2007-09-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

hey blog...
im back wif a brand new life....
6.9.7
i'll remember this date...
the day, my life been out of total darkness...
a shining bright light shines on it...
the day...
i'm attached to the RIGHT one....

first of all..
i'm quite nervous wen going on a date wif her...
after i know the truth abt how she feels abt mi...
n after i told my feelings to her...

the day was memorable to mi...
juz to summarise...
we ate at Sakura's at City Hall..
after tat we went to Clarke Quay...
we sat down...
tat was when i proposed to her...
quite nervous...
coz i nvr proposed to a gal to b my girlfren b4....
so we made it official...

after tat we went to the Cathay n watch No Reservation...
hmm, movie was nice...
watching it wif her was GREAT...
after the movie...
we felt like not going home...
so we torn* (dunno the right spelling for it, doesn't exist i think)
we overnite lah...
at clarke quay...

we sat under the moon n chatted...
den i felt kind of sleepy...
took a nap on her lap...
n i was smiling while napping...
the reason...
i was happy...
ecstatic, to be exact..
at the same time, my feeling was touched...
a gal nvr treated me this way before...
seriously...
i felt like crying with joy...

i knew tat she was the one for me...
i will treasure her heart...
n she will treasure mine...

TO MY LOVE:
"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH"

"I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU"

[Faten & Razlie]

Story of My Past Life

2007-09-04T03:05:00.000+08:00

hello suckers...
wakaka...
long time since i update...
malas uh...
been bz lately...

ok today's post is abt...
my past life...

[Bloggers]: Alah...kaninabey boring sak...

[Razlie]:Sabar.. sabar... perhatian...

[Bloggers]: Sabar sabar, sabah kt malaysia la...

[Razlie]:asbestos nye budak2... aku nk kenalkn korg sape aku dulu sebenarnye.....

[Bloggers]: Alah, mamat jual karipap kt tepi tangge tu uh...

[Razlie]: Pantat korg uh yg karipap... aku kompang kepale korg baru tau...!

okok... ignore those criticising faggots...
here goes my story...

last time...
i was a somebody...
a secret i've yet to tell to anione...
bt i cant keep this secret animore..
i wanna share it to u guyz...

last time i used to be a...
POWER RANGER!!!...

tis is how it goes...
i was schooling at Angel Grove High last time...
when something unexpected happens...
i, along wif 4 of my friends was attacked by a group of Matreps...
this is how they looked like...

bt they dun like to call themselves Matreps...
even though they look alike...
dey called themselves 'Putty Patrollers'...

We were attacked by them...
knn... they beat us up..
abes kicap...
we were powerless...
suddenly, we were teleported to a strange place...
the place was well-lighted with colourful lights...
i tot tat i was at the bazaar hari raye jual lampu lap-lip...
tapi sygnye bukan lah...
ni tempat nye...

ah.. colourful kn?...
den we saw a polong n R2D2...
eh salah...
mcm polong n R2D2 tapi ni bukan...
Alpha 5 and Zordon lah...
(ah.. ape makcik?.. apapai? maner ader apapai... alpha 5 lah.) (apple pie pon bkan makcik... makcik ni pekak uh.. sound rosak ye?..)
ah ni dier muker dorg...

[Alpha 5]

[Zordon]

Zordon ckp mcm gini:
"You have been chosen to form an elite team to battle Rita. As teenagers, the future of the planet is yours, and you are now called upon to defend that future. Each of you will have access to extraordinary powers, drawn from the spirits of the ancient creatures you call 'dinosaurs.'"
Alpha 5 and Zordon gave us the so-called 'Power of The Universe' lah eh...
Alpha 5 issued us our power coins, morphers n communicators n a instructional manual on how to use those things...

[power coins]
(ni bukan chocolate yg korg belik kt kedai mama tu eh)

[Morpher]

[Communicator]

after reading n understanding the manual,

we TRY to morphed n became the POWER RANGERS...

I was the BLACK ranger...
power of the MASTODON...

[Me]

Mastodon tu kirekn datok kepade mammoth n datok moyang kepade gajah...
this is my zord...

[Mastadon]

my life as a ranger was great...
we made a lot of frenz...
like these guys...

[Ernie]

[Bulk n Skull]

n fought a lot of enemies....
here r some of the enemies...:

[Rita Repulsa]

[Lord Zedd]

[Goldar]

[King Sphinx]

[Squatt & Baboo]

[Finster]

[Pudgy Pig]

[Terrortoad]

[Twin Man]

bt im no more a ranger now...
da smakin tua...
stamina pn takde...
asik nk mkn, tido, mkn tido..
abeh tu morpher plak pecah...

time tu accident motor...
jatoh terplanting.. aduh!..
mcm maner ntah leh pecah...
imitation nye kot...

jgn bilg sape2 psl ni...
ak tknk keco2 uh...

kk.. Chow Chin Chaoz...
update soon kalau tak busy...

Picking Up The Pieces

2007-08-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

Yohaaa....
on Saturday...
we (Xero Gravity) wen to jam...
n Faten tagged along...

In the morning we went to play soccer...
finally...
after a few weeks of recovering process..
i gt to play...
even tho nt yet fully recover...
so what...
"my world, my rule, juz imagine..."
eh tu da mcm slogan LEGO...

here are some (out of 150 pics) of the pictures...

1st we chilled at Clarke Quay...

[watching our lives pass thru the river...]

[the guyz]

[see no evil, smell no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil, the other one dunno wat's he doing]

[don't fucking mess wif us]

[chill to the nite]

After tat, we made our move to the jamming studio..
which is the TIET studio...

[the rowdy boyz]

[rocking]

[still rocking]

[still still rocking]

*more pics uploaded at xero-gravity.blogspot.com

tat's how we spent our last saturday...
the nxt saturday will be a different story...

kk.. chow chin chaoz...

i'm slowly picking up the pieces...
without you...

Meet My New Friends

2007-08-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

dear bloggerz...
2dae's entry is sumthing tat happened to mi recently...
22/8/07 to be exact...

bloggerz: "wat happened on that day?..."
razlie: "sabar, sabar.... aku nk story uh ni..."

here i go...

on that day, i was supposed to go n sit for my exams...
it was my Eng. Maths paper day...
bt fuck...
i overslept n i felt an excruciating pain on my cheekbone...
haiz.. heard frm my frenz tat the paper was a killer paper..
huahuahua...
60% beb...

bloggerz: "we dont wanna hear abt ur paper, skip it!"
razlie: "sabar lah anak2 sundal...!"

at nite...
i went to see my doctor..
Dr.Eric..
keco lah sial dier....

he wanna noe wat happened to mi...
how i gt beaten up, how many ppl lah etc..
so i story everything to him...

he even taught mi tactics on how to fight them back..
huahuahua...
kekek..
dlm hati aku ckp..
"jgn nk merepek, aku nk M.C.(medical certificate) aku..."
nak kene dpt M.C...
kalau tk, camne nk apply L.O.A.(Leave of Absence)...
i want to take my paper lah sey...

after all tat nonsense..
he checked mi...
he check my cheek...
n he said tat i was having a *Paranasal Sinus...
a *Maxillary Sinus to be exact...

*Paranasal sinuses are air-filled spaces, communicating with the nasal cavity, within the bones of the skull and face. Humans possess a number of paranasal sinuses, divided into subgroups that are named according to the bones within which the sinuses lie:

-the maxillary sinuses, also called the maxillary antra and the largest of the paranasal sinuses, are under the eyes, in the maxillary bones (cheek bones).

after all tat BIO lesson...
i was issued an M.C...
after tat, i was introduced to my new friends...
here they are...

i'll introduce u to them..

This is 'Fentidrin'...
Don't underestimate his sexy name...
This guy can cause real drowsiness...
He's for my maxillary sinus...
Should be taken 1 pill after food & 3 times daily...

And this is 'Pacofen'...
She is the biggest among her frenz...
She reliefs my headache, body ache & muscular ache...
Should be taken 1 tablet after food & 3 times daily...

And this is 'Diclofenac' a.k.a. 'The Pain Killer'...
He's the smallest & cutest...
Don't let his 'Smarties' appearance fool u...
I can't sleep without him...
Should be taken 1 tablet after food & 3 times daily...

Last but not least...

This is 'Anarex'...
She's some sort of a Paracetamol...
For my headaches...
Should be taken 1 tablet after food & 3 times daily...

bloggerz: "lah... ni rupernye kwn baru dier...
ingatkn chicks ke pe..."
razlie: "saje je nk kasi suspen kat korg yg kpo2 tgh bace blog aku ni..."
haha...

ok tat's all for today...
this is DR. Razlie...
(P.H.D, bachelor in ubat2, M.C., degree in kemerepekan, S.T.D., S.T.M., S.S.G.B.)

kk... chow chin chaoz...

*References is credited to Wikipedia... Without you i also dunno wat is all that crap the doctor told mi...

Total Eclipse of My Heart

2007-08-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
first of all...
i'm gonna finish this thing...
i got tagged by Fatin n this is wat it says..

Rules: Each player starts off the game by giving 6 weird things about themselves.People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as stating the rules clearly, in the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tag and list their names.

okok... i will list down the 6 weird things...

1) i EAT alot... i mean it.. ALOT... but i'll nvr get fat....
2) i may look like a MATREP... bt i am soft in the heart....
3) i may look & dress like a MATREP... bt matreps dont go poly n chase their diploma...
4) i may look sombong... bt actualli pemalu...
5) sometimes i mayb quiet n daydream... bt actually i'm having my deep thoughts... thinking of a plan...
6) when i look you in the eye, it onli mean one thing... I'm reading ur mind...
(so don't let me look in ur eyes if u gt something to hide)

next step is to tag 6 ppl n list their names...
i'm not gonna do tat...
malas...

kk.. tat's enough for the crapz...
let's get back to topic...
the topic is...
total eclipse of my heart...
wat does it mean?..
total eclipse means the sun is totally covered by the moon..
n there is no light shine to earth...

well..
tat's wat happening to my life...
my heart has gone eclipse...
there's no light in my life....
i closed my heart...
i wont find someone to replace her...
i wont fall in love...
coz i will end up hurting the new gal instead...

for how long i will gonna be like this...?
for as long as i can...
juz let me be...

my heart is already taken by someone..
im nt letting it go not bcoz of she was the first love...
no.. no..
its juz tat..
i fell into a DEEP hole n cant get out...
i cant get out...
no one cant save mi...
EXCEPT HER..

so juz let me be in this hole alone and wait til she comes one day...

24/7

2007-08-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

dear bloggerz...
well, in todae's entry i'm not gonna talk abt
how i spent my days for the last few days...
watch firewerks, jamming.. etc...

first n foremost...
the reason i changed my blogskin is bcoz..
i received comments tat they cant click on the x's...
they can't view my post or watever lah...
c'mon lah...
upgrade ur internet explorer...
or use the mozilla firefox..
dun use internet explorer ver. 1.6 (sape tah pandai2 ckp ver. ni)...
1.6 lamer siol..
zaman purba nye internet sak...

bt i'm gonna write abt my previous post...
well, u guys mayb wondering...
yessah... razlie's moving on wif his life...
tat's partly right..
how i coped up wif my life now?..
hmm... trying to lah...
freakishly STRESSED OUT...
abt studies...
abt HER....
abt family....
haiz...

2dae i took my electromagnetic devices (EMD) exam paper...
HAH!...
i wrote utter rubbish....
the nite before tried to study till 4..
bt nth was captured...
how i did the paper?..
3 words:
"MAIN HENTAM JE!"
relieved once tats over...

kk.. it's hard to cope up wif life after ur gal left u juz like tat...
she say she loved u the first minute...
n the next, she end up wif another guy...
n to found out tat she treated him better than mi is much worse kind of feeling...
after all i did was never enough for her...
i tried to be somone...
i tried to be perfect...
bt was it all worth it?..
from the start... has she ever loved mi?..
if not, tat's y i tried my best by trying to win her heart...

24/7 i always think about her...
can't get her out of my head...
n my heart..
when i sleep...
i will surely 100% dream abt her..
im not exaggerating...

i'm an altruistic guy when it comes abt her...
i care abt her life n her dreams more than mine...
tat's y, i end up getting myself in trouble...
the hardest part..
is letting go of your dreams...
coz i always wanted her to accomplish her goals n dreams..
n i wanted to be by her side when she accomplished those dreams..

too bad i can't now...
if u wanna know whether i still LOVE you...
well, the answer is Yes...
no doubt abt it...

so i'm ending this...

my heart won't rest until all my questions are answered by HER...
I'll be waiting...
'Til Eternity...

I'll Take My Final Bow

2007-08-16T19:22:00.000+08:00

dear blog,
haish...
juz writing down wat i feel rite now...

hmm,
to you.. LINA..
or LYNN..
or NURALINA...
watever...

"I'm glad tat ur happi now...
Please do take care...
I wish u the best....
Forget abt mi...
pls.. do...
i dun wan to be the relationship wrecker...
Be happy wif him...
I dun mind if he's treating u rite...
I hope he will...
well, i guess i'm back to my life being single...
bt im not moving on...
i dun feel like it....
juz wannabe alone...
sori for everything...
so i'm here taking my FINAL BOW...
thank u for letting me feel the love tat i nvr felt before..."

GOODBYE....

Web Videos

2007-08-15T20:33:00.000+08:00

hey..hey...
it's time for another...
Razlie's Wonderful World of Web Videos...

Juz to relief some stress... :((
Check out these videos i found....

conferm kekek nye...

Street Fighter: 10 years later....

kekek tak?...
haha..
ngah tunggu continuation dier...
da cam addicted gitu tgk video bodoh2 ni...
teringat dulu zaman budak2 dulu...
fanatic ngan game ni...
sampai leh gadoh, marah, nangis pn ader...
kusyuk sgt katekn...

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ni video lagi mcm sial...
kalau sape2 ader minat dlm bidang memasak...
ah ni video khas utk korg...
da tgk mesti pandai masak...
recipe hari ini ialah...

Fish & Chips

da pandai?...
haha...
mampos org lau makan nye...
tp dah masak lawa plak...
wakakaka.... kakak kau...

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okok...
skarang nk dedicate kn lagu ye....
ni music video...
music video karot lah...
utk kawan2 pompuan aku di luar saner....
dgr betol2 lyrics nye ye...
lagu berjodol...

What About Blowjobs?

hahaha...
da pandai?...
kk.. wakakaka..

nk comment siler type pat tag box ye...

kk... chow chin chaoz..

shatteredDREAMS.sunkenHEART.

2007-08-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
haish!!!...
feel really down lately...

seriously...

looks like she moved on....

shit...

wat abt mi...

leave mi here like THRASH....

i gt bashed trying protect the one I LOVE...

bt i get this in return.....

now, still trying to recover...

still receiving treatments from the Hospital....

haish...

u leave me here alone...

i'm trying to get better...

pain in my face, my nose, my eyes...

more seriously my heart...

been coughing blood lately....

where r u?..

i need you...

i carved ur name on my heart...

i cant love another...

to my love of my life:

I STILL LOVE YOU...

Video of Blackjacks...

2007-08-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

here's some of the video tat we recorded....
this is the video of the blackjacks...
dun worry, there's no porno or sexual content in it...
if u wan such things... go find other place uh..

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the first video...
film at Pulau Ubin...
we were there on our fishing trip...
suddenly Hafiz saw a snake in our tent...
so this is wat we did...

keco rite?.. haha...
i was busy on the phone lah sey..
talking to Lynn...
ngah syiok tibe2 kene buat kerje bodoh ni...
A video tribute to the late and magnificent STEVE IRWIN...
bcoz of ur shows i was inspired...
haha.. wakaka..
terbatok2 dier kat kubor nanti...
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as for the next video...
this is a clip when we were eating at changi airport...
hmm, nice food... sempat ambek video karot ni...

haha... crap sia...
hehe... majok siket pn salah...
tapi jgn cakap "alalala"...
geli aku... kalau BABYGIRL aku ckap ok uh...!
tp sedih... she's nt wif mi anymore... :((

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the next video...
hmm... a terrorist or tukang potong rumput (grass cutter)?
film at marina... to fish...
hak.. sempat buat video...

haha.. listen to our arabic accents...
haha... Osama Bin Lodon...

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next... is a video we shot at VIVOCITY opening...
Hafiz asked for direction to where is top-MAN...
nt topman.. bt top-MAN...

bastard rite?...
poor guy...
wore tat stupid suit mcm pilot dlm citer OTROMAN..

den kena disturbed by us...

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NEXT UP!!...
a fight between a 'pendekar'(warrior) n an 'imam'(religious leader)...
fought for one reason...
to fight..
whu gets to play the x-box... -_-'

in case u r wondering...
this clip was taken during Hari Raye...

kat rumah Razi..

kalau korg perasan...

woi..!! Hazmi... mulut penoh ngan Kueh Raye...!

ckap "satu, due, tige pn tak betol..."
wakakaka...

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next... is our sec school video...
we were supposed to go to MINDS (school of the handicapped n dumbed..)
for C.I.P...
bt we did these instead...

amacam ader talent tak?...
nt bad rite?...

whu needs a lion dance troupe please call us...

1900-lotang-buat-nenek-kau-mampos-nye....

(calls are charged $1 per minute. Callers under 18 please seek ur Nenek nye consent.)
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haha... tats all...
update later...

chow chin chaoz....

Aherk...Aherk...Pui...!!

2007-08-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

dear blog...
eh mcm kental gitu...
takpe uh....

erm..erm...

dear blog....
2dae went to....err..
VIVO... shhh....
but told my parents tat i go to JP...

if they found out...
habes lah...
jadi kambing korban kene sembelih...

told them i eating at mcdonald...
bt the fact is i did not eat...
juz chill at VIVO..

da tu nk balek tk angkat kol mak aku...
trus kol balek..
here's the convo:

[mom]: Oi pekak eh! tak angkat talipon... mak call da nk kat 10kali...
[aku]:err... abg tarok silent uh....
[mom]: tarok silent... kau kat ne? kol brape nk balek... kater td ngah naik bus?
[aku]:err.. ngah jln ni, kt lakeside... td hantar lynn balek rumah....
[mom]:ah okok... kau nk mkn tak?
[aku]: ler... mkn agik... abg nak...(interrupted)...
[mom]:takpe lah... kau share mee goreng ngan mak sudah...
[aku]:huh... okok...

dlm hati... "siak uh lapar..."
btw, i was nvr wif lynn...
kwang3...

went to VIVO..
wif an aim...
to find the 3 bastard coward gundus tat assaulted and robbed mi....
cowardz...
aherkk...aherk... pui!...

too bad cudnt find them..
cilatot nye anak2 haram...

kalau aku jumpe...
hah... nahas korg....
kasi plying kick kat muker korg...
baru korg tau sape aku...

keturunan jauh bruce lee!!...
ni dia... razlee...!!
eh salah ader ple-ot sikit..
razlie...
tk nk aku namer razlee..
Lee... eeee...
namer org2 hamis... bawah tak cuci nye siol..
mkn babi... (jgn terase ah mat)...
wakakaka...kakak kau...

tp ader lori ader bus...
lain hari aku balas...
ade taxi ader mrt...
lain hari kau mati...

sorong papan tarek papan...
sorong lagik tarik lagik...
lepas tu ambek tu papan...
hentak kepale kau...

kk.. chow chin chaoz...
(i'll update soon... kalau tk malas...)

K-N-N-B-C-C-B

2007-08-10T03:02:00.001+08:00

dear blog...
juz finished updating my other blog...
(which is pvt)
now juz updating this blog for my peeps sake...
kk...

2dae wen to merlion park juz to watch fireworks n few of the airshows from NDP '07..
bt it gt crowded n we fuck off...
we went to a bridge opposite the esplanade..
sit on the railings for appx. 4 hours...
after the firewerks...
wen to mcdonald's at clarke quay...
n eat at the near the riverside..
ok.. den walk back...
to the parliament hse..
chilll...

after tat hazmi received a called from lynn...
mark this name... HAZMI... nt mi seh!!..
knnbccb....
called him wat for...
i noe lah he fanatic...
bt im the one whu recognized them!!...
but he being a gd fren and bro...
immediately passed the fon to mi...
talked to lynn..

she said she saw a guy tat assaulted me last thursday...
FUCK..
wat the hell u doing at VIVO!..
kepale otak...
tak ingat ke...
i was assaulted on the same day!!...
oi!!..
hello!!..
bt... told her to get out of there...
b4 aniting happens to her...
worried lah sey..
of coz..
nyawe aku oi!...

bt...
bt...
bt...

bt nenek aku uh...
ape2 uh...

update to u peeps soon...
kalau tk malas uh....

chaoz chin chowz......